SW​:​S Retreat November VA 2018

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    Our retreats pair professional songwriters with veterans, military families and couples, and active-duty service members to write songs about their military experiences and returning home.
    The following veterans and spouses participated in the November 2018 BCR VA retreat: Paul & Tina Bergeron, Jason & Marylee Locey, Ken & Amber Roads, John & Alice Seibert, Shawn & Kate Thomas
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released December 12, 2018

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Track Name: I WANT TO SEE YOU
Jason & Marylee Locey / John & Alice Seibert / Paul & Tina Bergeron / Ken & Amber Roads / Shawn & Kate Thomas / Darden Smith

I want to see you
I want you to see me
Who I am
Who you are
Where we stand
Come so far
I want to see you
And I want you to see me too

I get so nervous and don’t know what to expect
Spent most of my life thinking I know what comes next
It takes a certain kind of stupid to marry someone like me
But here we are and we are where we are meant to be

I want to see you
I want you to see me
Who I am
Who you are
Where we stand
Come so far
I want to see you
And I want you to see me too

I thought it was gonna to be easy it’s been anything but
Separation, accidents, injuries, we never know what
Waiting on phone calls, scared of the knock on the door
I’m looking forward to when we don’t have to live this way anymore

I want to see you
I want you to see me
Who I am
Who you are
Where we stand
Come so far
I want to see you
And I want you to see me too

So we can have the time
We promised so long ago
Some way some day
To have and to hold

I want to see you
I want you to see me
Who I am
Who you are
Where we stand
We come so far
I want to see you
I want you to see me
Who I am
Who you are
Where we stand
We come so far
I want to see you
And I want you to see me too
I want you to see me
And I want you to see me too

© 2018 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) / Darden Smith Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: LIVING LIKE THIS
Shawn & Kate Thomas / Mary Gauthier

He proposed at the gun range, it was my birthday surprise
We got married fast, tied the knot on the 4th of July
By September he was gone for nine months, oceans away
I stayed busy as I could but I cried almost every day

She knew from day one saving lives is what I’m here to do
I’m Army, EOD, and I love my work thru and thru
I’d have left it if she asked but I knew she never would
She understands our sacrifice serves a greater good

One day we’ll travel with the seasons
In the summer we’ll go north and catch some fish
In the winter we’ll ride south on the Victory to the desert just to kiss
Anything is easier than living like this

When Wade got killed we lost more than our best friend
Then we lost Nick and we went thru it all again
We saw their names go on the wall, watched the flags changing hands
Now there’s a hole in our family it goes on and on and it never ends

One day we’ll travel with the seasons
In the summer go north and catch some fish
In the winter ride south on the Victory to the desert just to kiss
Anything is easier than living like this
One day it will be easier than living like this

© 2018 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) / Mary Gauthier Songs (ASCAP)
Track Name: CARRY THE FIGHT
Paul & Tina Bergeron /Jay Clementi

When I shut down
I’m not trying to hurt you
I’m trying to shield you from
The dark side of my pain

Cuz it still runs wild
After all these years
Anger, hurt and bitterness
Is still burning through my veins

So baby sit down and take my hand
There’s some things about your man
That I don’t understand myself,
That’s why I’m asking for your help
I wanna be better for you, be the man I promised to
The one you thought you knew
Baby you’re my only light
And need you now, to help me carry the fight

I’ve tried on my own
But it left me feeling hopeless
But you put warmth in my heart
And it’s all coming in focus

Our love is strong enough
To fight these demons out of me
Your eyes are the mirror
To my soul baby let’s set it free

Baby sit down and take my hand
There’s some things about your man
That I don’t understand myself,
That’s why I’m asking for your help
I wanna be better for you be the man I promised to
The one you thought you knew
Baby you’re my only light
And need you now, to help me carry, carry the fight

Carry the fight, Carry the fight, Carry the fight
Carry the fight, Carry the fight

So baby sit down and take my hand
There’s some things about your man
That I don’t understand myself,
That’s why I’m asking for your help
I wanna be better for you, be the man I promised to
Baby the one you thought you knew
Baby you’re my only light
And need you now, to help carry
Baby won’t you help carry, carry the fight

Carry the fight Carry the fight Carry the fight
Carry the fight Carry the fight

© 2018 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) / Sony ATV Cross Keys (ASCAP)
Track Name: THE HARDEST WHEELS TO TURN
Ken & Amber Roads / Darden Smith

I’ve been alone all of my life
Hard as a stone making sure I survive
Learning how to break that stone in two
Learning how to open up to you

But letting myself love
And be loved in return
The wheels on the heart
Can be the hardest wheels to turn

But if I’d only known then all I know now
All my mistakes if I could take them back somehow
Don’t want to go down that road again
I want a love that’s more than just pretend

But letting myself love
And be loved in return
The wheels on the heart
Can be the hardest wheels to turn

I get scared I feel ashamed
It’s just the way that I was trained
I built a wall that I could hide behind
I can’t take it any more
I’m walking through a different door
And I’m strong enough to reach the other side

Of letting myself love
And be loved in return
The wheels on the heart
Can be the hardest wheels to turn

Of letting myself love
And be loved in return
The wheels on the heart
Can be the hardest wheels to turn

Hardest wheels to turn

© 2018 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) / Darden Smith Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: I WAS HOME
Jason & Marylee Locey / Jay Clementi

15 years old jet black hair, I looked at you and did a double take
Boom box on my shoulder jamming out to a little Dire Straits,
You had a Marilyn smile, Madonna hair, you were everything I wanted standing there

You said whoever that is, tell em chicks ain’t free
Money ain’t for nothing, hey you wanna come drink with me
That natty light did the job we were free falling down at gobblers knob

We coulda stayed forever, forever in our little world
I knew you were an Angel sent for me girl
You saved me with that first kiss, every word made me wanna give
You my heart and soul
For the first time it felt like
I was home
Like I was home

Life goes on and takes us down some broken roads-
We lost touch for so many years but we never really let go
Of that fire, that flame I wanting you have my last name

So when you reached out to me, from out of the blue
I felt alive again, reading those words from you
All my hopes and dreams, were in the glow of that laptop screen, screen

We coulda stayed forever, forever in our little world
I knew you were an Angel sent for me girl
You saved me with that first kiss, every word made me wanna give
You my heart and soul
For the first time it felt like
I was home

We both made it through our own November rain
And landed in each others arms somehow once again
19 years since our last touch
I’ve got you back I’m never giving you up

We can stay forever, forever in our little world
You are the Angel sent for me girl
You saved me with every kiss, every word makes me wanna give
You my heart and soul
You’re the only place I feel
Like home, feel like home

© 2018 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) / Sony ATV Cross Keys (ASCAP)
Track Name: THE HEALER
John Seibert /Darden Smith

You lifted me when I could not lift myself
I was broken in a thousand different ways
In the bright light in a white room
You were always next to me
And you gave me the strength to carry on

God sent an angel
To heal my body and my soul
You’re the healer
And you made me whole

You showed me how to fight through every fear
You gave me hope that I could be myself
You showed me how to laugh again
And as long as you were next to me
I had the strength, the strength to carry on

God sent an angel
To heal my body and my soul
You’re the healer
And you made me whole

I know that you struggled
Some scars you cannot hide
It made me want to fight a little harder
Just keep getting better
And together we found the strength to carry on

God sent an angel
To heal my body and my soul
You’re the healer
Yeah God sent an angel
To heal my body and my soul
You’re the healer
And you made me whole

You made me whole
Oh you made me whole

© 2018 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) / Darden Smith Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: (FOR NOW) I JUST FEEL WEAK
Amber Roads / Mary Gauthier

Air Force EOD, a woman on the front line
Catcalls, whistles and stares, on guard all the time
I made it thru combat I was stronger than I knew
But I let my guard down when I met you

Was I in love with a lie? Was I in love with a dream?
Was I in love with love? Is anyone who they seem?
When you’re around I want to feel the truth I speak
But I lose my way and I just feel weak

I come from addiction I come from abuse
Come from a long line of liars but I trusted you
You felt like home it was the worst thing I could feel
Cause where I come from it’s hard to know what’s real

Was I in love with a lie? Was I in love with a dream?
Was I in love with love? Is anyone who they seem?
When you’re around I want to feel the truth I speak
But I lose my way and I just feel weak

Here in the in between I grow stronger every day
I have friends all around me to help me find my way
Winter is here, but spring is around the bend
For every beginning, there has to be an end

Was I in love with a lie? Was I in love with a dream?
Was I in love with love? Is anyone who they seem?
When you’re around I want to feel the truth I speak
But I lose my way and I just feel weak
I know I’ll find my way, but for now I just feel weak

© 2018 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) / Mary Gauthier Songs (ASCAP)
Track Name: BOMB-BOY AND GINGER
John & Alice Seibert / Darden Smith

We met on a Monday night , drunk in a bar
Swagger meets hot chick, Alabama boy meets girl
90 days together in the first five years
We kept it all together laughing through the tears
Bomb-boy and Ginger taking on the world

I’m invincible
She’s tough as shit
Together we’re unstoppable
Never gonna quit
A force of nature
And together we can weather the storm

Miracle to miracle, combat to motorcycle wreck
Then came a boy named Jack and the house became a home
The struggle makes us stronger a bit more rope
Attitude of gratitude, hearts full of hope
We might be out in the woods but we’re not in the woods alone

She’s invincible
I’m tough as shit
Together we’re unstoppable
Never gonna quit
A force of nature
And together we can weather the storm

Faith, stubbornness and Motrin got us where are
We don’t know where we’re going but we think it’s out beyond the stars
It’s the journey, it’s the dream, it’s the walk, it’s the ride
Bomb-boy and Ginger and Doodlebug side by side

Yeah we’re invincible
Tough as shit
Together we’re unstoppable
Never gonna quit
A force of nature
Together we can weather the storm
A force of nature
Together we can weather the storm

© 2018 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) / Darden Smith Music (ASCAP)

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