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Jesse Hopkin / Jerryl Rita / John Sweredoski / Darden Smith

I feared of the night
I feared of the light
Still I always ran to the fight
I feared of the dark
I feared of the mark
That somehow I wasn’t enough I feared of the snap
Of the bullet gone past
But back home I fear the bullets
On the street every time
My kids walk out the door

But the greatest fear inside of me
Is losing the ones I love

I feared IEDs
Snipers in the trees
Knowing what it really means to be free
I feared coming back home
Feel so alone
Cause no one knows what it means to be me
Cause every firefight
Every man in my sights
Took a little part of me
And all I’ve got left now
Are my wife and my kids

Cause the greatest fear inside of me
Is losing the ones I love

When nothing makes sense I see the innocence
In their eyes
And I realize
I want to come home
I just want to come home

And the greatest fear inside of me
Is losing the ones I love
And I might just be one of the ones
I love I don’t want to lose the one I love


from SW​:​S Retreat - January 23, 2014, released May 16, 2014
Darden Smith Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)


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