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Jamie Trent / Gary Nicholson

I know you had to be crazy to do it
Or you wouldn’t have put us all through it
What could make a man take his own life
And break the hearts of his children and wife
When we found the list you left
And tried to imagine the pain you felt
It didn’t help us make much sense when we read
What the list said

Pay Jamie the fifty bucks I lost
When Virginia beat UNC
Give Bobby back the green tie I borrowed
It never looked right on me
Return the tools to the neighbor next door
That tried to help me fix my car
And stop by the Idle Hour when you can
I left quite a bill at the bar
Yeah I know this list gets a little long
But there’s really nothing left to say
Just try to forgive me if you can for leaving this way

None of us knew how hard you got hit
That it was enough to make you want to quit
We all just wondered if you thought it through
Was there really nothing left to do
We just think of all you left behind
Trying to understand what goes through the mind
Of a desperate man
With no better plan

Give my good golf clubs to Nick Lavelle
He’s too cheap to buy his own
Give my season tickets to Trevor
The biggest Bristol fan I’ve ever known
Pass my autographed Michael Jordan basketball
To anyone you want to pass it to
If anybody wants to come to my funeral
Have ‘em wear Carolina blue
After all this I know there’s not a lot to say
But please try to forgive me if you can for leaving this way

Yeah when you talk to the kids I know it’s gonna be hard
To find anything to say
But just ask them to forgive me if they can
For leaving this way


from SW​​​:​​​S Retreat - August 23​-​25, 2013, released August 26, 2013
© 2013 Sony/ATV Cross Keys Publishing/Gary Nicholson Music (ASCAP)
© 2013 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)


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