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I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE
Chris Chirco / Darrell Scott

I'm not supposed to be here, I'm not supposed to tell
I'm to lie down in this darkness and live here in this hell
Make believe that nothing happened, make believe I'm still ok
This pain inside me fights me and will not go away
It never goes away

I'm not supposed to be here. I'm the accidental child
I live my accidental lifetime, and live in your denial
But I will break this code of silence, this shame is killing me
I will break the chains that bind me, this caged bird will be free

I'm not supposed to be here, I'm not supposed to tell
I'm to lie down in my darkness and live here in this hell
Make believe that nothing happened, make believe that I'm ok
Oh the pain inside me fights me and will not go away

If I am supposed to be here, with all my strength renewed
Then demons, I dispatch you to the dark side of the moon
And there you will be watching me as my life from you begins
When i know i'm supposed to be here I will have my true revenge
I will have my true revenge

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from SW​:​S Retreat - April 26​-​28, 2013, released June 21, 2013

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Founded by Austin, Texas singer-songwriter Darden Smith and Mary Judd, SongwritingWith:Soldiers is a non-profit 501c (3) organization.

Our Mission: We transform lives by using collaborative songwriting to expand creativity, connections, and strengths.
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