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Scott McRae / Jay Clementi

I don't call home much anymore
I got to keep my game face on
That's the thing about this war
You do selfish things to stay strong
Cause every time I call her she puts a chink in my armor
Gotta keep my men alive they can't see weakness in my eyes
Cause there's always

Heavy weapons
Metal flying trying to send us to heaven
Tracers whistling in the dark
Hell bent on tearing my men apart
Gotta keep my head clear through it all
Gotta keep my eye on the ball
Everything that I know is threatened
By these heavy weapons

The last time I was home
She said some things to me
That made feel so damn alone
Brought me crying to my knees
To this family you’re a ghost she said to me and it was the most
Devastating thing I’ve heard she don't realize that her words
Are just like

Heavy weapons
Always in flying my direction
Like a tracers whistling in the dark
Hell bent on tearing me apart
It just don't make no sense at all
It's like she wants to see me fall
It may not be her intention
But her words are heavy weapons

I’ve been blown up I’ve been hurt
I’ve been bleeding face down in the dirt
Nothing crushed me more than when she walked out the door
Her aim was sharp
She took my heart hit me hard
Just like

Heavy weapons
Not caring what it's wrecking
Like a tracers whistling in the dark
It tore me all apart
It just don't make no sense it all
It's like she wanted to see me fall
It may not have been her intention
But when it comes to me
She's a heavy weapon


from SW​:​S Retreat - October 26​-​28, 2012, released June 22, 2013
© 2012 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music / Warner Chappell (ASCAP)


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