SW​:​S Retreat - September 2015

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    Our retreats pair professional songwriters with veterans and active-duty service members to write songs about their military experiences and returning home. Kimberly Burris, Dustin Crites, Abraham Galvan, Herbie Hernandez, Ken Jordan, Karl Mulling, and Clayton Webster participated in the September 2015 retreat. These songs are their stories.

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released November 5, 2015

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Founded by Austin, Texas singer-songwriter Darden Smith, SongwritingWith:Soldiers is a non-profit 501c (3) organization. Our mission is to assist in the emotional healing process of both active duty U.S. soldiers and veterans through collaborative songwriting. ... more

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Track Name: Stuff They Make You Do
STUFF THEY MAKE YOU DO
Karl Mulling / Gary Nicholson

Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again
What they put you through for cuttin’ loose with your friends
Might seem like a good idea at the time
But the punishment is always worse than the crime
Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again

We were drunk and loud having too much fun
Doing what we knew we should have never done
Shooting bottle rockets at alpha company
They made me crawl across the field on my hands and knees
Throwing water balloons off the third floor
Shooting up the barracks with paintball wars
Running up and down the hills all day long
Do an obstacle course with a gas mask on

Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again
What they put you through for cuttin’ loose with your friends
Might seem like a good idea at the time
But the punishment is always worse than the crime
Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again

Knocked down to PFC for not saluting
Had clean the latrine doing extra duty
Dig a hole in the ground to spend the night in
Fill it up next morning like it’s never been
Get in full battle rattle ruck ten miles
Eat dirt all day and come up with smile
You know they’re only trying to thicken your skin
Cause survival depends on the shape you’re in

Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again
What they put you through for cuttin’ loose with your friends
Might seem like a good idea at the time
But the punishment is always worse than the crime
Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again

The ones you trust are the ones that push you hard
They show you how it’s gonna be when you’re out in the real war

Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again
What they put you through for cuttin’ loose with your friends
Might seem like a good idea at the time
But the punishment is always worse than the crime
Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again
Track Name: Never Land
NEVER LAND
Brook Sweitzer / Darden Smith / Amy Speace / Monte Warden

I wanted to see the world
All the people I could meet
But I just saw the earth
From 30,000 feet

Never land I never land
Never land I never land

Galaxies at night
Time to think of you
You're somewhere down there
Behind that wall of blue

Never land I never land
Never land I never land

I carry fire out there on my wings
But I never see the damage that that fire brings

Cause I never land I never land
I never land I never land

Fly and fly and fly
Fly and fly and fly
Fly and fly and fly
Never land
Track Name: I'm Still There
I’M STILL THERE
Clayton Webster / Monte Warden

There’s miles and miles of beach outside my door
But I couldn’t be any further from the shore
Momma, I cannot tell you where I am
But I’m learning what it takes to be a man

I spent last night underneath the stars
The very same ones shining where you are
So before you say your prayers tonight
Know that when I close my eyes

I’m still there in my bed down the hall
Asking for one more story, that’s all
Momma they can send me anywhere
But home is where the heart is, and I’m still there

In the care package you sent there was nothing wrong
By the time it came back to me the cookies were gone
The video of Mary’s recital sure was great
Tell her I hope to be home by her birthday

Momma I can’t answer all the questions you asked
But I’ll tell you all my stories when I get back
Every day feels like I’m walking in a dream
There’s only one thing that’s carrying me

I’m still there in my bed down the hall
Asking for one more story, that’s all
Momma they can send me anywhere
But home is where the heart is, and I’m still there

But home is where the heart is, and I’m still there
Track Name: Rumors Fly
RUMORS FLY
Kimberly Burris / Amy Speace

I was the lowest on the totem pole
A girl in the company of men
First time away from family
Trying to prove myself to them
You go in a little naïve
But then you learn the facts
The first thing that they'll tell you
Is to watch your back – cause

Rumors fly
Rumors fly

From boot camp to combat
School house to the fleet
They give you the unwritten laws
The things you should never speak
Don't be that girl who tells the truth
So I kept my mouth shut and I never left my room – cause

Rumors fly
Rumors fly

It was early in the morning
I had everything to lose
There was a TV to my right
I was the stranger in the room
I was the first to wake and quietly I dressed
I never said a word just left

Cause rumors fly
Cause rumors fly

You know it's gonna happen
You never have to say that word
Don't do anything to fuck it up
For all the other girls
Track Name: All Wars Are Just The Same
ALL WARS ARE JUST THE SAME
Kimberly Burris / Ken Jordan / Amy Speace

Even though I served I didn’t really know
Didn’t really get it till I watched him go
My only son, maybe I’d seen too much
I was afraid didn’t make a fuss

When I was in ‘Nam it was one day at a time
Didn’t think of home life was on the line
No time to worry and I didn’t care
To my folks at home it wasn’t fair

To those of us who’ve been there
It’s shoot kill and maim
Forget the propaganda
All wars are just the same

As his carrier came out of the mist
My heart remembered what it had missed
I was one of the few who got to see
My baby boy come home to me

To those of us who’ve been there
No matter what the name
Forget the propaganda
All wars are just the same

To those of us who’ve been there
Call it by any name
No matter what they tell us
All wars are just the same
Track Name: Triggers
TRIGGERS
Dustin Crites / Darden Smith

I remember crowded market places
Trying to read the looks on all the faces
When I was in Iraq
Now that I've come back
And the traffic on i635
Gets bumper to bumper You know that I
Just get kinda mad
Well that's the kind of day I've had

I got these triggers on my soul
Touch that trigger I'm gonna blow
I just want some peace
So my triggers can get released

I used to come home to a screaming wife
But I knew I didn't want that kinda life
I'd rather be alone
Then not have a loving home
I love you cause you are nothing like that
You think with your heart before you act
Like I'm the only other one
Under the sun

I got these triggers on my soul
I don't want that trigger to blow
You give me the peace
So my triggers can be released

I'll never be all the way clear
I might get edgy I might get weird
I just wanna be a good man
So baby try and understand

About those triggers on my soul
I don't want them to blow
Let's make love let's make peace
Let's let those triggers get released
Track Name: A Man On A Mission
A MAN ON A MISSION
Abraham Galvan / Gary Nicholson / Darden Smith

I’ll tell you about a man on a mission
Named Abraham
Divine intervention
Called to take a stand
Little did he know
Why the Lord said his name

Many are called and few are chosen
To be a Christian soldier
He’s a man on a mission
Abraham on a mission

Through the good times and the bad times
The hard times he endured
Once he was a devil-dog
Now his heart is pure
Little did he know
The Lord had a bigger plan for Abraham

Many are called and few are chosen
To be a Christian soldier
He’s a man on a mission
Abraham on a mission

No greater love than Jeremiah 29:11
He’s walking through the fires of hell
Carrying his brothers up to heaven
Through the power of the Holy Ghost
He’s picking up the pieces
He’s gonna put that heavy load
In the hands of Jesus

Many are called and few are chosen
He’s a real Christian soldier
A man on a mission
Abraham on a mission
Track Name: Friends
FRIENDS
Kimberly Burris / Gary Nicholson

Friends will always get you through
No matter what this world does to you
You laugh with the good times
And cry with the bad times
Every time you need someone to turn to
Friends will get you through

Sometimes all you need is a way to have some fun
You might talk all through the night or just get drunk
You can tell ‘em anything they’re gonna listen to you
Whatever life puts in your way friends will get you through

Friends will always get you through
No matter what this world does to you
You laugh with the good times
And cry with the bad times
Every time you need someone to turn to
Friends will get you through

You know you may never see them again
But what you have together will never end
Moving on isn’t easy it’s hard to let ‘em go
They might be the closest family you’ll ever know

Friends will always get you through
No matter what this world does to you
You laugh with the good times
And cry with the bad times
Every time you need someone to turn to
Friends will get you through
Track Name: Moving Song
MOVING SONG
Herbie Hernandez / Darden Smith

18 years old I could see
The passing train wouldn’t wait for me
A new direction was what I’d need
18 years old I could see
That I gotta keep moving
I can’t stand still
I gotta keep moving
I always will

I learned hard lessons and I grew up fast
It’s hard to hold on when nothing lasts
My wife and my brothers and my peace of mind
All caught another train rolling down the line
So I gotta keep moving
Try to make things right
Gotta keep moving
While I’m stlll alive

I gotta keep moving
Can’t look back
Over my shoulder
Don’t look back

I had to find a way to prove to myself
There’s something more than hate and guilt
And love
Where is the love
It wasn’t in the bottle and it wasn’t in the pills
I was looking then and I’m looking still
For love

I used to love to sleep but not no more
Nightmare always coming through my door
Haunted by demons night and day
Just to get peace the only way
Is I gotta keep moving
Moving on
Gotta keep moving
I sing a moving song
Track Name: Soft Spot
SOFT SPOT
Herbie Hernandez / Amy Speace

I was only 18 just days out of school
I signed up to serve to do what I could
A boy surrounded by men with fresh blood on their hands
Carrying the weight of the Combat Infantry Badge

I had a soft spot I had always protected
I took on too much it got tough but I did what was expected
It was a tough job but I would not neglect it, my soft spot kept me connected

I carried a load more than half of my weight
The things we needed to do – shoot, move, and communicate
Old enough for a gun but too young for a drink
In hell you survive a minute at a time cause you're too tired to think

I had a soft spot I was neglecting
But when things got rough my skin had to grow tough that was expected
It was a tough job and I lost the connection
To who I was and what I was protecting

I had a friend who was about the same age
We trained and we fought we drank and we talked we gambled with our days
It was almost midnight the end of September
On the side of the road shrouded in smoke
My breath in his lungs but there was no hope
Nothing could be done he lost the chase
I'll carry this – for the rest of my days

He had a soft spot that kept us connected
We took on too much it's never enough no one's protected
It's a tough job I guess that's what I expected
It was too much I’ll never forget it
It was too much I’ll never forget it
Track Name: Was That Really Me
WAS THAT REALLY ME
Brook Sweitzer / Monte Warden

I didn’t keep the citations
I should have, I guess
An old drawer holds the medals
They pinned on my chest
I’m proud to have served
It was the right thing to do
But sometimes I feel like a stranger
In a braver man’s shoes

Did I really do that?
Was that really me?
Did that really happen?
Or, was it a dream?
Sometimes lookin’ back
It’s hard to believe
Did I really do that?
Was that really me?

I flew a B-52
An old tough, buff of a whale
And, if its wings could talk
You’d hear a hell of a tale
From Diego Garcia, north to Afghanistan
Armed with MK-82s and a dozen J-Dams

Did I really do that?
Was that really me?
Did that really happen?
Or, was it a dream?
Sometimes lookin’ back
It’s hard to believe
Did I really do that?
Was that really me?
Track Name: Just Getting Started
JUST GETTING STARTED
Ken Jordan / Darden Smith / Gary Nicholson

1970 to 71
Just another kid in Vietnam
I saw things you wouldn’t believe
Sitting here talking man it’s taking me back
Stories start coming I start to lose track
If I’ve told this one before, just stop me

Cause I’m just getting started

Saigon, Phu Bai, Ben Hoa, Danang
The mountains of Pleiku, no two the same
I carry these places across all time
I tell you these stories so you can see
Down deep into the soul of me
And telling this story keeps that part of me alive

I’m just getting started

Soldiers go away some come home
The memories live on
The memories just live on
I’m just getting started

I’m just getting started