SW​:​S Retreat October 2019 Loveland, CO

by SongwritingWith:Soldiers

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I don’t know if I’m a good person to start with Trying to say yes instead of no I’ve been in this rhythm for a long, long time Trying to find a new road Looking for the new road home New road home Been out here too long on my own Looking for the new road home Behind me there’s nothing but chaos Broken windowpanes Distant storms and lightning Guilt and darkness and shame On the road of forgiveness No more darkness no more tears Reconnecting with all those moments so long gone Break into that new frontier Where sun shines bright and the air is clear Peace and harmony and joy that’s where I belong SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music / Darden Smith Music (ASCAP)
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Help Me 04:18
I can't find my way out of here Been stuck in a night that never ends Haven't seen the light in so long I've never been so close to giving in A desperate man will do most anything A bottle in my hand, revolver at my feet Been crying for so long now My maker, I'm ready to meet Help me, Lord, help me A desperate man will do almost anything Mama never wanted her boy to be a soldier But what's a boy got to do to be a man? I never thought I'd bring this war home with me And a darkness that never ends Help me, Lord, help me What's a boy got to do to be a man? Don't want to answer the Grim Reaper's call But I'm in a battle I can't win Been fighting all alone for so long Guardian Angel, won't you lend a hand Help me, Lord, help me Guardian Angel, won't you lend a hand Help me, Lord, help me Guardian Angel take this bottle from my hand So I can begin to live again Will Kimbrough Music (BMI) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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If the whole world were blind I could really be seen I’d be rockin’ a tight dress and showin’ my seams Age wouldn’t matter Sex wouldn’t matter Weight wouldn't matter Size wouldn’t matter If the whole world were blind I could really be seen If the whole world were blind I’d still jump out of planes And flight school for women wouldn’t sound insane Strength would matter Courage would matter Brains would matter Trust would matter If the whole world were blind I could really be seen If the whole world were blind I would be able The disabila-babe doing burlesque on the table Pasties wouldn’t matter G-strings wouldn’t matter Stretch marks wouldn’t matter Shape wouldn’t matter If the whole world were blind I could really be seen I wouldn’t hesitate to investigate everything that was me If the whole world were blind I could really be seen Sole Sister Music (BMI) admin. by BMG / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Strong 03:59
I can see you hurting I can see your pain I can see your shoulders Bend beneath the strain But you’re always there for me No matter what I do Strong, so strong You are the calm inside my storm Rock, my rock The solid ground my life is built upon When others would fall You stand tall Strong, strong, strong The wounds that we carry The deep and secret scars And the one you brought Back home from the war Surrounded by ashes As we walk through the fire Strong, so strong I want to be the calm inside your storm Rock, your rock The shoulder you can always lean upon When others would fall I’ll stand tall Strong, strong, strong Together we are moving through the darkness To find a better place out in the blue To be the objects of each other’s desire Like when our love was new Strong, so strong The calm we need so we can carry on Rock, each other's rock The solid ground that life is built upon When others would fall We stand tall Strong, strong, strong, strong © 2019 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music / Darden Smith Music (ASCAP)
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I keep moving, I stay busy, I'm so organized Every day is planned out just so I can stay alive Everybody says I need to find a peaceful place But when it gets too quiet I feel like I'm in a race That I can't win and if I let it catch me I might lose my grip The storm is dark and heavy and I can't afford to slip A brutal and relentless cloud that follows me around It's always right behind me, so I can't slow down This is my life, my struggle, it's no way to live I can see the path ahead, and see the one I've lived Full of pain and doubt and suffering and I know it's just not fair I don't want to go there - No, I don't want to go there There's no resolution to this situation here Just a never-ending marathon where I outrun my fear It's exhausting but I always find the energy I need A purpose and a reason to keep my strength and speed -CHORUS- There are good days when I can outpace calamity Good days on the precipice of finally breaking free Making stipulations to avoid reality So I keep moving, I stay busy, I'm so organized Everyday is planned out just so I can stay alive Everybody says I need to find a peaceful place But when it gets too quiet I feel like I'm in a race -CHORUS- Will Kimbrough Music (BMI) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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There are boxes I saved of my dad's country songs I thought I’d burn them one day I’m so glad I held on There’s a piece of his soul in every note Better than pictures—these songs that he wrote And I’m tryin' to understand Through the dyin’ how to reach this man There’s a box of forgiveness for the pain that he caused I thought it was empty For years I was lost I pawned his guitar, I’m sorry I did But I’ve got these songs that tell me he lived And I’m tryin' to understand Through the dyin’ how to reach this man I’ve got a box of paints and when I think of my dad How he loved yellow and serenaded me with all that he had There’s a piece of my soul in every note Better than pictures—these songs that he wrote And I’m tryin’ to understand Through the dyin’ how to reach this man Sole Sister Music (BMI) admin. by BMG / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Home Brewed 02:55
Home brewed pain, I hold it in Til it’s distilled…my medicine I pour it out on your lips Home brewed pain…it tastes like love Shattered pieces of my past Lie before me like stained glass Light breaks through it lifts us up Home brewed pain...it tastes like love No easy way to press through I couldn’t do this without you When we’re torn apart and we’re not enough Home brewed pain…it tastes like love Home brewed pain, I hold it in Til it’s distilled, it’s my medicine I pour it out on your lips Home brewed pain…it tastes like love Gill 'n' Goldie Music (ASCAP) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Some days I live, some days I just exist The struggles I have been through made me like this But there’s a higher power I’ve been here before In my darkest hour I believe there's more To make it to tomorrow I got to make it through today Stand here in this moment Feel the wind upon my face Let all the wrongs and sorrows From all my yesterdays Fade away, let ‘em go Make it through today So I can make it to tomorrow I’ve seen the hardness of the world, so cruel and so wild But I have seen the beauty in the voice of a little child I walk on this earthly plane But I want to rise above I want to find a better peace Live in love One more sunrise, one more song One more chance to hold your hand before I’m gone SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music / Darden Smith Music (ASCAP)
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I went into combat in an Angels arms I must have been carrying a lucky charm Nobody ever did me no harm I went into combat in an angel’s arms In the Mekong River I was baptized But I still had the fear there in my eyes The sound that a mortar round makes when it flies In the Mekong River I was baptized Why didn’t I die, why am I here What do I do with all of these tears Questions still linger after 51 years Why didn’t I die and why am I here Carry these memories, things that I saw You’d think by now I would have left it all But nights like tonight it just comes back raw Carry these memories, things that I saw The banana grove ambush, bullets so near Sound of the wounded still rings in my ears Silence of a man as he’s leaving here The banana grove ambush bullets so near Why didn’t I die, why am I here What do I do with all of these tears Questions still linger after 51 years Why didn’t I die and why am I here Maybe the reason that I’m alive To tell these stories so we don’t forget Cause people fight wars, it’s people we lose Cause people move on, I haven’t yet People move on, but I haven’t yet SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music / Darden Smith Music (ASCAP)
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Blue Lake 03:07
On the top of the mountain At the beginning of Spring I can feel my connection With everything When trouble is brewing I’m gonna make my escape I can drive for hours and hours On my way to Blue Lake I stopped in for the journey Not to find the finish line I’m being chased by something I’ll escape in time I wanna hear the sound, yeah That nowhere makes I need to drive for hours and hours On my way to Blue Lake Up here on the high path Mesmerized with the solitude Looking at the shoreline Puts me in a better mood Down by the river There’s a bridge of ancient wood I dangle my feet through the railing Like a little child would An unplanned adventure Puts a smile on my face I’m gonna spend hours and hours On my way to Blue Lake I love driving for hours and hours On my way to Blue Lake Gill 'n' Goldie Music (ASCAP) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Walk With Me 03:15
Walk with me, walk with me These streets are too mean To go it alone, walk with me This morning I feel much lighter This morning I feel inspired The monkey on my back is gone I know you’re gonna walk with me -Chorus- Though I may feel uncertain And I don’t know what it means I guess I’ll find out later on But I know you’re gonna walk with me -Chorus- On a mountain in the valley Through all the unknowns I’m not afraid of a changing path I know I won’t walk alone -Chorus- This morning I feel connected This morning my heart is free Now I’m a little more open Cause I know you’re gonna walk with me -Chorus- Darden Smith Music (ASCAP) / Will Kimbrough Music (BMI) / Sole Sister Music (BMI) admin. by BMG / Gill 'n' Goldie Music (ASCAP) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)

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released December 28, 2019

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