SW​:​S Retreat November CO 2017

by SongwritingWith:Soldiers

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Roseann Robichaud / Mary Gauthier Kansas City nineteen sixty eight I was a farmer’s daughter on the road alone I knew I had to go, and so I went I was nineteen and out there on my own Big brown eyes, a Kennedy smile My whole life changed when he walked in the room My sweetheart my first and only love From the first time I saw him I knew But the enemy visits us at night When he screams in his room it makes me cry There’s an enemy embedded in his head The war lives on in both of our beds He signed up for Nam in sixty-eight He thought his bars and wings would keep us safe He came home with the fifty-yard stare The flyboy that I fell for wasn’t there And the enemy visits us at night When he screams in his room it makes me cry There’s an enemy embedded in his head The war lives on in both of our beds You’d think after 50 years it would recede After all that time there’d be no more blood to bleed You’d think there’d be no more tears to cry But the enemy still visits us at night Yeah the enemy visits us at night When he screams in his room it makes me cry There’s an enemy embedded in his head And the war lives on in both of our beds Mary Gauthier Songs (ASCAP) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Tara Smith / Jay Clementi I see the beauty in the sun peaking through the trees I’m taking in the little things And I’m thankful— High above the ocean with the wind blowing through my hair It won’t erase what happened there and I’m grateful I love my life and I want to keep it It took feeling my smile again to see it Just to think, that I could have missed this Could have let my light burn out And take all of my love with it Just to think I could have died with all my wishes Riding horses on a beach, Wrapped in fairy tale kisses I climbed that Mountain of fear And I’m still here I’m still here Since I was a child I’ve been trying to find me Sifting through the broken branches Of my family tree I made new brothers in the land of the burning sand lost em all again and fell into to lonely But I trust this golden road I’m going down And I know that it’s the way home now Just to think, that I could have missed this Could have let my light burn out And take all of my love with it Just to think I could have died with all my wishes Riding horses on a beach, Wrapped in fairy tale kisses I climbed that Mountain of fear And I’m still here I’m still here Just to think, that I could have missed this Could have let my light burn out And take all of my love with it Just to think I could have died with all my wishes Riding horses on a beach, Somewhere wrapped in fairy tale kisses I climbed that Mountain of fear I conquered that mountain of fear And I’m still here I’m still here Oh I’m still here I’m still here Sony ATV Cross Keys (ASCAP) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Robb Robichaud / Darden Smith Hey there brother, I see you’re face I can tell you’ve been in some other place Well just between us, welcome back home I bet you’re feeling a little lost and alone Most of your family, maybe some of your friends Wish you would be like you were back when They might want to hear some stories, raise a toast But they don’t want to give you what you need the most But you’re ok You’ve just come so far We’re all living Life after the war Hey there sister, I know you’ve seen some bad things Night comes round, I know what that brings They got a little name for it, PTSD I got it too, you’re just like me You’re gonna be ok You’ve just come so far We’re all living Life after the war Don’t go to the bottle, don’t go to the meds That ain't gonna help the demon in your head Lean on your brothers, to get what you need Lean on your sisters, and lean on me We’re gonna be ok We’ve just come so far We got to keep living After the war We got to keep living After the war Darden Smith Music (ASCAP) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Robb Robichaud / Mary Gautheir I have to deal with my demons So I built a vault in my brain I don’t wanna release them I don’t wanna explain My demons recede in the daytime Sometimes I think they are gone But at night they howl and they haunt me Chase me till sunup at dawn There are two types of scars people carry I’ve got the kind you can’t see We fight a mental battle My bothers my sisters and me The scars of war never leave you The scars of war they remain We carry the war deep inside us Coming home we’re not the same We might look perfectly healthy We smile and we play the game We hide the truth of our feelings We hide the truth of our pain There are two types of scars people carry I’ve got the kind you can’t see We fight a mental battle My bothers sisters and me Mary Gauthier Songs (ASCAP) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Clay McJunkins / Darden Smith Sometimes in the nighttime I cannot fall asleep Laying right there with you I cannot help but think Of camel spiders, mortar fire and moon dust everywhere I’m here but there’s a part of me that’s over there In the hours we have lost I can see the cost This is not your burden Trying to heal all of my hurt’n It all happened well before you Well before our time But if you stand beside me With your hand to guide me I’ll put down the pain inside me And I will find My peace of mind I know you got your story, know that you’ve been hurt So I don’t really talk about my time in the dirt I want to keep you safe, don’t want to wound your heart I know that you would cover me, if I was in the dark Because you are that strong If it takes our whole life long, but This is not your burden You’re trying to heal all of my hurting It all happened well before you And well before our time But if you stand beside me With your hand to guide me I’ll put down the pain inside me I will find My peace of mind Time heals Love heals Patience is all that I need, cause… This is not your burden You can’t heal all of my hurting It all happened well before you And well before our time But if you’ll stand beside me With your hand to guide me I’ll put down the pain inside me I will find My peace of mind My peace of mind Darden Smith Music (ASCAP) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Emily Yates / Darden Smith I’m on a highway A highway so long Thinking about Dylan Singing these songs Chimes of Freedom Blood on the Tracks Thought I left the war behind But I brought it back I can’t right the wrongs Unknow the lies Can’t untell the story Can’t close my eyes There’s so many like me Under these skies Who just can’t help thinking We weren’t the good guys We’re not the uniform We’re not the mission We’re not the rank we wore We’re not ammunition Strip off the story See who we are We might be in battle But we’re not the war So come sisters and brothers Let’s open our arms Make a safe haven To keep us from harm There we can gather There we begin Start loving ourselves Forgive all our sins We’re not the uniform We’re not the mission We’re not the rank we wore We’re not ammunition Strip off the story See who we are We might be in battle But we’re not the war We’re not the uniform We’re not the mission We’re not the rank we wore We’re not ammunition Strip off the story See who we are We might be in battle But we are not the war Darden Smith Music (ASCAP) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Rachel Kennon / JD Martin I miss you I hate you Though that’s hard to say I stay awake most every night Wondering why you couldn’t stay I feel so cheated by that secret love You turned to again and again I just can’t stop thinking about What we might’ve been I still listen to your beautiful voice So many memories in the sound My timid little soldier No one’s going to hurt you now Your battle is over Mine is one I can’t seem to win I just can’t stop thinking about What we might’ve been I love the stories you made up Just to make me laugh You made me feel I was the only one The first and the last I wonder why you couldn’t care for yourself The way you cared for your friends I just can’t stop thinking about What we might’ve been Your battle is over Mine is one I can’t seem to win No I just can’t stop thinking about What we might’ve been I miss you Gill ’n’ Goldie Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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David Brower / Jay Clementi / JD Martin I spent three years on the ocean In diesel submarine In that sea of emotion I saw things that I can’t unsee I had so many close calls In the thick of it all I said my fair share of prayers I guess he needs me more down here Gave me nothing to fear Ain’t no mistakin’ Let me make it perfectly clear There’s a bigger plan That I don’t always get Naw he ain’t through with me yet Naw he ain’t through with me yet Doctors said I’m a sick man They just can’t be wrong I lifted up my eyes to heaven And started listening to a different song I thought sooner than later I would meet my maker Singing bass in the heavenly band I guess he needs me more down here Gave me nothing to fear Ain’t no mistakin’ Let me make it perfectly clear There’s a bigger plan That I don’t always get Naw he ain’t through with me yet Naw he ain’t through with me yet My baby changed my attitude Filled my heart with gratitude And faith and love Yeah love sweet love Glad he needs me more down here Gave me nothing to fear Ain’t no mistakin’ Let me make it perfectly clear There’s a bigger plan That I don’t always get Awe he ain’t through with me yet He ain’t through with me yet Naw he ain’t through with me yet He ain’t through with me yet Awe he ain’t through with me yet Sony ATV Cross Keys (ASCAP) / Gill ’n’ Goldie Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
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Darden Smith / Group I know better than to volunteer That’s the kind of thinking that got me here Now I sit around and drink too much beer I know better than to volunteer I know better than to volunteer I just wanted to get out of town Go see the world and write it down I found a new family we went through the dust But the people there didn’t like us Yeah the people there didn’t like us I know better than to volunteer That’s the kind of thinking that got me here Now I sit around and drink too much beer I know better than to volunteer I know better than to volunteer It’s not all that it’s cracked up to be I’m volun-told government property But I learned a few things about me I’m stronger then even I could see I’m stronger then even I could see I think about tomorrow and way back then It’s not about me it was all about them It’s not about me it still about them I know better than to volunteer Yeah that’s the kind of thinking that got me here Now I sit around and drink too much beer Yeah I know better than to volunteer I know better than to volunteer I know better than to volunteer I know better than to volunteer I know better than to volunteer Darden Smith Music (ASCAP) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)

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Our retreats pair professional songwriters with veterans, military families and couples, and active-duty service members to write songs about their military experiences and returning home. David Brower, Rachel Kennon, Clayton McJunkins, Robb Robichaud, Roseann Robichaud, Tara Smith, Emily Yates participated in the November 2017 Heart-J Center Loveland CO retreat. These songs are their stories.

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released January 13, 2018

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