SW​​:​​S Retreat - May 2016

by SongwritingWith:Soldiers

supported by
/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

    All purchases are tax-deductible donations to SongwritingWith:Soldiers.
    Our retreats pair professional songwriters with veterans, military families and couples, and active-duty service members to write songs about their military experiences and returning home. Bill Auger, Erin Calabrese, Barry Fetterolf, Deven Merritt, Monique Arrucci Page, Beau Pendergraft, Andrew Pigg, Daniel Piña, and Tom Volcheck participated in the May 2016 retreat. These songs are their stories.

      $1 USD  or more

     

1.
2.
3.
4.
03:06
5.
03:50
6.
7.
8.
04:39
9.
10.
04:18
11.
12.

credits

released July 14, 2016

tags

license

all rights reserved

about

SongwritingWith:Soldiers Austin, Texas

Founded by Austin, Texas singer-songwriter Darden Smith, SongwritingWith:Soldiers is a non-profit 501c (3) organization. Our mission is to assist in the emotional healing process of both active duty U.S. soldiers and veterans through collaborative songwriting. ... more

contact / help

Contact SongwritingWith:Soldiers

Streaming and
Download help

Redeem code

Track Name: Don't Hold Back
DON'T HOLD BACK
Tom Volcheck / Gary Nicholson

I don’t hold back
You're gonna get every bit of me
No honey, I don't hold back
You're gonna get every bit of me
You gave me my chance
Now you're gonna find out just how good a man can be

I can't promise you that someday
You may wish for something more
But one thing I can promise
You'll never be bored

I don't hold back
You're gonna get every bit of me
Yeah you gave me my chance
Now you're gonna find out just how good a man can be

She's a pole dancing, Harley riding, red-headed woman
Raisin' babies
Waitin' tables
She said I'm gonna give you all the lovin' I got
Over and over, mister if you're able

Cause I don't hold back
You're gonna get every bit of me
She said I don't hold back, boy
You're gonna get every bit of me
Yeah, you gave me a chance
Now I'm gonna show you just how good a woman can be

Well she'll sleep out in the woods
Loves the open air
If some critter smells her cookin'
Lord, I'm sorry for the bear

She'll chop the wood, to build the fire
To cook the trout she caught that mornin'
Don't dare criticize her cornbread
Brother take this as a warning
She don't hold back
Always gives it everything
No, she don't hold back
She's the lovin’est woman I've ever seen

No, I don’t hold back
You’re gonna get every bit of me
Oh, I don't hold back
You're gonna get every bit of me
You gave me my a chance
We're gonna find out just how good love can be

You gave me my a chance
We're gonna find out just how good love can be


© 2016 Gary Nicholson Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: That's How Every Story Starts
THAT'S HOW EVERY STORY STARTS
Erin Calabrese / Terry Radigan

80 miles an hour
Front door, full stop
Deep breath
Heart drops, door knocks
I’ve gotta find my place of peace
An open field, a rolling river, it’s where I cease
The touchstone between my finger and thumb
My touchstone so I don’t come undone

You might think this story’s free
But it cost me dearly (cost me dearly)
I get the get
But you don’t know how it’s given (how it’s given)
I’m just the taker
Wanting,
Hoping,
Praying
To be forgiven (to be forgiven)

The who, what, when, where, and why
I live by the Five Ws and sometimes I die
In a stranger's living room
Trying to find a way to be
That’s how every story,
Every story starts for me

I’ve gotta be clear
Be clear to be here
I’ve gotta take in
Take in their everything
If we get far enough down the road
We might get to the how
Then 'I' becomes 'we' and we’re in the moment now

You might think this story's free
But it cost me dearly (cost me dearly)
I get the get
But you don’t know how it’s given (how it’s given)
Cause I’m just a taker
Wanting,
Hoping,
Praying
To be forgiven (to be forgiven)

That's how every story
Every story starts for me
That’s where every road
Every road it leads
And there's no going back, there’s no pretend
This is a story that will never end

You might think this story's for free
But it cost me dearly (cost me dearly)
I get the get
But you don’t know how it’s given
Yeah, cause I’m just the taker
Wanting,
Hoping,
Praying
To be forgiven (to be forgiven)
Be forgiven (to be forgiven)

© 2016 Catherine the Great Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: Lincoln James
LINCOLN JAMES
Daniel Piña / James House

I could hear your voice calling
From another world away
I was deep in the shadows
Losing friends day by day

I didn't write your mama letters
Dare not tempt the reaper's hand
Love and pain colliding
Someday we'll talk, you'll understand

And we called you Lincoln James
Son of thunder, tall and brave
May your heart stay
Full of wonder
My life changed, you'll know your name
Lincoln James

Someday I'll tell you about your history
You will show me who I am
Your sweet mama, she's a mystery
Her true love changed my plans

And we call you Lincoln James
Son of thunder, tall and brave
May your heart stay
Full of wonder
My life changed, you'll know your name
Lincoln James

On the day that you were born
I know I'd make it through the storm

And we call you Lincoln James
Son of thunder, tall and brave
May your heart stay
Full of wonder
My life changed, you'll know your name
Lincoln James

© 2016 Go With A River Publishing (BMI) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: Choices Gone
CHOICES GONE
Barry Fetterolf / Darden Smith
Vocals: Barry Fetterolf

Barely 19 years old
I got the letter in the mail
I was too naive for Canada
Too scared to go to jail

We lived in the projects
South of the city
Those letters came to most of us
The college boys got pity

Choices gone
Choices gone
Choices gone

Took basic in Fort Bragg
They put us up in shacks
Left over from our father’s war
We were proud of that

Choices gone
Choices gone
Tell me where have all the years went, should be moving on

Choices gone
Choices gone
Choices gone

I did my year in Vietnam,
Like most of us would do
Politicians’ sons and rich kids
Had better things to do

Choices gone
Choices gone
Choices gone

Just wasn’t right to send us there
And set us up to lose
Young men should not be sacrificed
You ought to get to choose

After all these years it bothers me
The memories and the shame
Like we need another war song
To toss around the blame

'Cause 45 years later,
I’m still carrying the shame
Of what I did and what I saw…

Choices gone
Choices gone
Choices gone

© 2016 Darden Smith Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: Nobody Knows
NOBODY KNOWS
Bill Auger / Darden Smith

I came from home from war and people think I’m messed up in my head
Cause I saw too much combat, but the truth instead
Is that the trouble started a long time ago
I got these secrets that nobody knows

As child I learned to be afraid to be left alone
I joined the Marines thinking I’d find the strength to stand on my own
I ran to the fight but the fight just followed me home
I got these secrets that nobody knows

Nobody knows the pain I’ve seen
Nobody knows the trouble I dream
I don’t show, I don’t tell
I’m walking tall but I’m just a shell
And nobody knows, nobody knows but me

It’s easier to deal with the devil you know than the devil outside your door
I’ve been carrying this burden for a long, long time, I can’t carry the weight much more
If I told you the truth, would you promise you won’t go?
I’ve got these secrets nobody knows

Nobody knows the pain I’ve seen
Nobody knows the trouble I dream
I don’t show, I don’t tell
I’m walking tall but I’m just a shell
And nobody knows, nobody knows but me

Heaven sent me an angel, not a minute too soon
She’s my reason for healing these wounds
She’s my reason to start facing the truth

Nobody knows the pain I’ve seen
Nobody knows the trouble I dream
I don’t show, I don’t tell
I’m walking tall but I’m just a shell
And nobody knows, nobody knows but me

© 2016 Darden Smith Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: No One To Blame
NO ONE TO BLAME
Gary Nicholson / Deven Merritt / Andy Pigg

If I'd said what I was feeling
If I'd listened to her
If I'd given just a little more
Maybe we could have made it work

If she'd told me there was trouble
If she'd asked me for some help
Maybe we could have stayed together
And found a way to save ourselves

But there's no one to blame
No one to blame
If we stay or walk away
It's still a crying shame
We live with the past
But it's never too late to change

And there's no one to blame

Coming back is never easy
Seems like everything's gone wrong
My world stops moving when I'm out there
Spins out of control when I'm home

But there's no one to blame
No one to blame
If we stay or walk away
It's still a crying shame
We live with the past
But it's never too late to change

And there's no one to blame

No one to blame
If we stay or walk away
It's still a crying shame
We live with the past
But it's never too late to change

And there's no one to blame

© 2016 Gary Nicholson Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: She's Not Coming Back
SHE'S NOT COMING BACK
Monique Arrucci Page / Terry Radigan

I did my time
On the front line
And I was so sure
I’d go right back to who I was before
And God knows I tried
Each and every day
To piece it back
To find my way

But something was missing
And I just couldn’t see
Something was missing . . .
And it was me

Oh, but she’s not coming back
Oh no, she’s not coming back
So say goodbye
Then have a cry
Dry your eyes (dry your eyes, dry your eyes)
Then let her go (let her go)
'Cause you know (yeah you know)
There’s someone waiting to say hello

And she’s tomorrow
Coming any day
As soon as she meets up
Oh, with yesterday
War is over
And peace is on the way
There’s no more hiding
Let me hear you say

She’s not coming back
Oh no, she’s not coming back
So say goodbye (say goodbye)
Then have a cry (have a cry)
Dry your eyes (dry your eyes, dry your eyes)
Then let her go (let her go)
'Cause you know (yeah you know)
There’s someone waiting to say hello

And it’s the girl
Who traveled halfway round the world
Learning to be strong
Who’s singing this here song

© 2016 Catherine the Great Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: Jah-Melah
JAH-MELAH
Beau Pendergraft / Darden Smith

Jah-melah, Jah-melah,
My beautiful girl
Jah-melah, Jah-melah,
You are my world

I look into your eyes
I see a spirit born to fly
A bird on the wing
You hunger for the sky
I want you to remember
That you were born to sing
All the love that only you can bring

Jah-melah, Jah-melah,
My beautiful girl
Jah-melah, Jah-melah,
You are my world

I look in your eyes
I see all I have to lose
They can take me from this world
But never away from you
Know that I am with you
I’ll be your loving guide
Spiritually I’m always by your side

Jah-melah, Jah-melah,
My beautiful girl
Jah-melah, Jah-melah,
You are my world

All the pain that I’ve been through
I’d do it all again and more for you
So your days can be full
And your soul be free
For this song is yours to sing

Jah-melah, Jah-melah,
My beautiful girl
Jah-melah, Jah-melah,
You are my world

© 2016 Darden Smith Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) 
Track Name: Don't Let Them Take It
DON’T LET THEM TAKE IT
Barry Fetterolf / James House

You can cover it up
With lies, and drugs, and booze
Hide it behind walls
Pride and the so-called truth

All you can do is hold on
The best that you can

Don’t let them take it, the love that you need
Don't let them take it, the things you believe
Don't let them take it, time that's yours to grieve
Whatever you do
Don't let them take it from you

You can turn and walk away
Wear the soles off your shoes
You can stand up and fight
'Till there's no fight left in you

All you can do is hold on
The best that you can

Don’t let them take it, the love that you need
Don't let them take it, the things you believe
Don't let them take it, time that's yours to grieve
Whatever you do
Don't let them take it from you

Don’t let them take it
Don’t let them take it
Don’t let them take it

Whatever it is
It's yours and only yours to give

Don’t let them take it, the love that you need
Don't let them take it, the things you believe
Don't let them take it, time that's yours to grieve
Whatever you do
Don't let them take it from you

© 2016 Go With A River Publishing (BMI) / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: Dark Train
DARK TRAIN
Bill Auger / Darden Smith

Sit down daddy, I got a story to tell
Sit down daddy, I got a story to tell
My whole damned life’s been one long living hell

I don’t talk to my brother no more
I don’t talk to my brother no more
My brother he ain’t my brother no more

There’s a dark train
Rolling through this town
The dark train might tear the whole house down

Sit down brother, I got something to say
We both know we can’t change what you did that day
But you can’t go on living that way

There’s a dark train rolling through this town
I think the dark train’s gonna tear the whole house down
There’s a dark train rolling through this town
I think the dark train’s gonna tear the whole house down

You can beat my body but not my soul
You can beat my body but not my soul
I’m a new man now, I’m taking control

Sit down daddy, try to be strong
Sit down brother, this won’t take too long
It all ends right now, here today, then I’m moving on

There’s a dark train
Rolling through this town
I’m gonna let the dark train tear the whole house down

© 2016 Darden Smith Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: My Dearest Poots
MY DEAREST POOTS
Erin Calabrese / Monique Arrucci Page / Kathy Nardolillo / Kelly Strade / Stella Sensel / Krista Spohr / Emily Thon / Terry Radigan

My Dearest Poots
Do you remember when we were playin’ in the backyard?
“Rock Around the Christmas Tree” was playin'
Your Mama was in the kitchen dealin' cards

And you were wearing something close to nothing
Trying to get me back to your doggie daycare
For all your run around on the ruff side of town
Bitches that ain’t been treatin' you fair

You act like you’ve got the only bone around
But I’ve got a few buried way downtown
So why don’t you go and chase your tail
You all bark no bite alpha male

Easy boy, settle down
Easy boy, settle down

I’m not sorry about the spiked choke collar
Keep it up and I’ll be breaking out the muzzle
You sittin' there with those big puppy eyes
Beggin' for a little Vegas cuddle

You act like you’ve got the only bone around
But I’ve got a few buried way downtown
So why don’t you go and chase your tail
You all bark no bite alpha male

Easy boy, settle down
Easy boy, settle down

But oh no, it’s not time for the Rainbow Bridge (No, no no)
You still got a couple tricks to turn
And remember, you are the Spencer . . .
To my Hepburn

You act like you’ve got the only bone around
But I’ve got a few buried way downtown
So why don’t you go and chase your tail
You all bark no bite alpha male

Easy boy, settle down
Easy boy, settle down

Easy boy, settle down
Easy boy, settle down

© 2016 Catherine the Great Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)
Track Name: Falling Apart
FALLING APART
Darden Smith & Group

It looks like my country is falling apart
Things I’ve loved ripped from my heart
We’re just looking for a brand new start
Looks like my country is falling apart
Looks like my country is falling apart

It used to be easier it used to be whole
We were made of steel we had iron in our souls
Invincible like Superman
Then the shit really hit the fan

It looks like my country is falling apart
Things I’ve loved ripped from my heart
We’re just looking for a brand new start
Looks like my country is falling apart
Looks like my country is falling apart

We’re looking for a leader to get us back on track
We’re looking for a leader to get us on a track
Instead of watching Fox News and doing crack
Bit by bit take the country back

It looks like my country is falling apart
Things I’ve loved ripped from my heart
We’re just looking for a brand new start
Looks like my country is falling apart
Looks like my country is falling apart

A country of unity
Built for you and built for me
So that all of us have opportunity
To live free
Live free
Live free

It looks like my country is falling apart
Things I’ve loved ripped from my heart
We’re just looking for a brand new start
Looks like my country is falling apart
Looks like my country is falling apart

© 2016 Darden Smith Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)