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    Our retreats pair professional songwriters with veterans, military families and couples, and active-duty service members to write songs about their military experiences and transition home. These field recordings were recorded on-site at a SongwritingWith:Soldiers retreat and capture a song being performed just hours after it's been written, like a song capturing its first breath.

    Participant Co-Writers: 
    Cena Bertozzi / Daniel Cummings / Jacob Helie / Michael Hocutt / Lori McVicar-Peltan / Paul Morey / Margaret Vargo / Reggie White

    Singer-Songwriters:
    Jay Clementi / Radney Foster / Danny Myrick / Terry Radigan

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Between The Darkness And The Light 03:32
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BETWEEN THE DARKNESS AND THE LIGHT Cena Bertozzi / Radney Foster Six obituaries in two years Trying to write the last one through the tears Two Papas, two brothers and two best friends I don’t know why God took the youngest in the end I feel stuck between the darkness and the light Praying and yelling at God most every night It’s hard to push through, smile cause they want you to When you’re stuck between the darkness and the light I feel stuck between the darkness and the light I don’t like to talk about this at all Unless it’s late and I’m drinking alcohol I got a husband when I feel empty he’s my Rock He helps me fly when the heartaches start to flock When I’m stuck between the darkness and the light Praying and yelling at God most every night It’s hard to push through, and you smile cause they want you to When you’re stuck between the darkness and the light I feel stuck between the darkness and the light Louie you’re headed for a better place I swear Hug Ricky for me… when you get there Cause I’m stuck between the darkness and the light Praying and yelling at God most every night It’s hard to push through, and you smile cause they want you to When you’re stuck between the darkness and the light I feel stuck between the darkness and the light
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Believe Me I Know 03:10
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BELIEVE ME I KNOW Jacob Helie / Radney Foster When everybody’s dying around you it gets lonely Trust me You spend your whole life burying stuff cause it's what we do It’s true I should’ve taken better care but nobody told me You’ll be burning shit when it catches up, catches up with you Believe me I know, believe me I know It’s best if you let go Give away your heart, give away your soul It’s best if you let go Believe me I know That sinking feeling of another lost soul don’t stop When you get home Another bottle down, another sorrow drowned Won’t unlock why their gone You think it’s the answer, listen to me - it’s never gonna be I’ve been down in that cruel dark place myself But now I’m free Believe me I know, believe me I know It’s best if you let go Give away your heart, give away your soul It’s best if you let go Believe me I know I’m a fortunate man, cause an Angel holds my hand. She’s the reason that I’m here, she’s the reason I’m still here. Believe me I know, believe me I know It’s best if you let go Give away your heart, give away your soul It’s best if you let go Believe me I know
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I’m Coming For You 02:49
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I'M COMING FOR YOU Reggie White / Terry Radigan Somewhere I stopped dreaming Somewhere I lost my way Somewhere I stopped believing But now it’s a brand new day Somehow I’m gonna make it better Somehow I’m gonna make the change Somehow gonna get it all together And you’re gonna know my name I ain’t gonna fall Gonna stand tall Imma let the world World see it all Imma hold truth I am living proof There is nothing I can’t do And I’m coming for you Someone will be waiting Someone who knows my heart Someone has got the invitation And now it’s a brand new start Imma go left Imma go right Imma turn the day Into the night Gonna go big Gonna make it last Gonna do it all You ain’t gotta ask I ain’t gonna lie Gonna be true There is nothing I can’t do And I’m coming for you Somewhere I stopped dreaming Somehow I lost my way Someone is believing And now it’s a brand new day
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Fly Fly 04:17
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FLY FLY Lori McVicar-Peltan / Terry Radigan Mama thought I’d be safe Get off the streets Let Uncle Sam Make a man out me So I learned to fight Throw a grenade Wore a gun on my hip But I was always afraid Cause the enemy Wasn’t the other side He was right next to me And there was no place I could hide I was fighting the war no one could see And a piece of me died It took all I had Each and every day Not to fly, fly away They took the sun Out of my sky Took the light So bright from my eyes Then they took touch They left me cold Took damn near everything But they can’t take my soul No the enemy Wasn’t the other side He was right next to me And there was no place I could hide I was fighting a war no one could see And a piece of me died It took all I had Each and every day Not to fly, fly away She’s somebody's mother She’s somebody’s wife He’s somebody’s brother It’s somebody’s life And I know you’re out there Broken like me But you’re not alone Cause God always sees Still it takes all we have Each and every day Not to fly, fly away
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It Led Me To Jesus 03:20
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IT LED ME TO JESUS Margaret Vargo / Danny Myrick Walking on eggshells to avoid a 12 pack fist Taught me and my sister a not so normal way to live Love that I went looking for in failed relationships Felt like wasted time and tears along this battered trip Now that I’ve had more years behind me than the ones I have in store Looking back I’m oh so grateful for Every twist every turn Every hill every curve Every wrong way footstep I left in the snow Every pain every heartache Every minute every mistake Every bad break that it took to pave this road It Led Me To Jesus At 21 my daddy said go be all you can be So I signed up not knowing where this journey might take me If I had been the author of the story of my life There’s at least a couple chapters I’d have chosen not to write Now that I’ve had more years behind me than the ones I have in store Looking back, I’m oh so grateful for Every twist every turn Every hill every curve Every wrong way footstep I left in the snow Every pain every heartache Every minute every mistake Every bad break that it took to pave this road Cuz it led me to Jesus – It led me to Jesus I’ve got no regrets and I’ve made peace with my past I’ve found so much beauty in the ashes at last Cuz every twist every turn Every hill every curve Every wrong way footstep I left in the snow Every pain every heartache Every minute every mistake Every bad break that it took to pave this road Led me to Jesus It led me to Jesus
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Let Go Of The Pain 03:51
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LET GO OF THE PAIN Daniel Cummings / Danny Myrick Elbow deep in gears thought I had the years all figured out 2008 my whole world changed when the banks and the shop shut down So I made the only choice I had to try to get out of debt Next thing I know a Mississippi kid had a gun to his head And I’m digging my way out of this hole I’m living in Looking for a ray of light to help me start all over again Here I am hiding in the corner making friends with the shadows Trying to be a man while holding on to the secret, hell nobody else knows Just a little boy looking at the dark sky getting baptized by the rain Can somebody show me cause I don’t know How to let go of the pain Little brother was my best friend even when we were all grown up Skater punk long hair tattoos you don’t like it hell it don’t matter much He was one tough son of a bitch but he had an itch only pills could scratch When they took him away, he had to find a way Still can’t believe he went out like that And I’m digging my way out of this hole I’m living in Looking for a ray of light to help me start all over again Here I am hiding in the corner making friends with the shadows Trying to be a man while holding on to the secret, hell nobody else knows Just a little boy looking at the dark sky getting baptized by the rain Can somebody show me cause I don’t know How to let go of the pain Mom was my source of strength My true north shooting star Til cancer came for her, left me in the dark with one more scar Now I’m digging my way out of this hole I’m living in Looking for a ray of light to help me start all over again Here I am hiding in the corner making friends with the shadows Trying to be a man while holding on to the secret, hell nobody else knows Just a little boy looking at the dark sky getting baptized by the rain Can somebody show me cause I don’t know How to let go of the pain Yeah I’m here to grow Learning how to let go of the pain
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Home Son Soon 02:55
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HOME SON SOON Michael Hocutt / Jay Clementi You’re gonna be alright buddy you’re not alone You’re gonna fly through the night, and be there before dawn Is there anything I can get you? You’ll be home son soon Hang on here comes a bump Get you on this ramp, get you all set up It’s an amazing crew You’ll be home son soon That’s a c17 it’s the Cadillac of the clouds God and aerovac angels got their hands on you now You did your duty, now we got you Relax lay back enjoy the ride through the light of the moon The hard parts over, you’ll be home son soon I hear It’s been a while, since you’ve been away I know for sure you’re gonna see some better days Your family will be at Andrews, you’ll be home son soon Yea, that’s a c17, it’s Cadillac of the clouds God and aerovac angels got their hands on you now You did your duty, now we got you Relax lay back enjoy the ride through the light of the moon the hard parts over, you’ll be home son soon You’re one sleep closer, you’ll be home son soon
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Living Right 03:24
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LIVING RIGHT Paul Morey / Jay Clementi The VA made me prove my PTSD With forms and news clippings Like they forgot there was a war My hope is fleeting, my faith is bleeding Don’t know what I’m believing that’s for sure Every time that hurt would hit me I’d reach for the whiskey But I don’t pass out to go to sleep anymore I can face the pain cold sober I don’t wake up on the floor and wonder If my self sabotage, hit the main stage last night There’s a new sheriff in town, I don’t play when I fight Won’t let it back inside, no it had to die, so I Could start living right They had a right to kill me, would they, if they, knew me What that war did to me, put the bottle in control…until I made it let go Now I don’t pass out to go to sleep anymore I can face the pain cold sober I don’t wake up on the floor and wonder If my self sabotage, hit the main stage last night There’s a new sheriff in town, I don’t play when I fight Won’t let it back inside, no it had to die, so I Could start living right We toasted the tough times, numbed the pain I won’t lie Those days are gone of living wrong, the truth is that I Don’t pass out to go to sleep anymore I face the pain cold sober I don’t wake up on the floor and wonder If my self sabotage, hit the main stage last night There’s a new sheriff in town, I don’t play when I fight I won’t let it back inside, no it had to die, so I Could start living right
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A New Song To Sing 03:02
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A NEW SONG TO SING Cena Bertozzi / Daniel Cummings / Jacob Helie / Michael Hocutt / Lori McVicar-Peltan / Paul Morey / Margaret Vargo / Reggie White / Jay Clementi / Radney Foster / Danny Myrick / Terry Radigan There’s a brightness in the air There’s a lightness everywhere Turned my tears into hope and a melody Now the tears are no longer there Sun is shining thru the trees Rain is dancing on the leaves Love is growing courage flowing strength I never knew Something’s happening to me I’ve got a new song to sing I’ve got a new dream to dream God only knows Where this is gonna go But I’m gonna let that wave keep carrying me Gonna let that wave keep carrying me Well if you can’t fight the tide Just get on that break and ride Let the wash cleanse your soul love make you whole You’re gonna feel like you’ve been baptized Got a new song to sing I’ve got a new dream to dream God only knows Where this is gonna go But I’m gonna let that wave keep carrying me Gonna let that wave keep carrying me When the water runs deep And salt begins to sting When i feel the undertow I’ve got the faith it’s gonna let me go Well I got a new song to sing I’ve got a new dream to dream Oh and God only knows Where life is gonna go But I’m gonna let that wave keep carrying me I’m gonna let that wave keep carrying me I’m gonna let that wave keep carrying me I’m gonna let that wave keep carrying me
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Hard Time Healing 02:57
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HARD TIME HEALING Cena Bertozzi / Daniel Cummings / Jacob Helie / Michael Hocutt / Lori McVicar-Peltan / Paul Morey / Margaret Vargo / Reggie White / Jay Clementi From Jeremiah Was A Bullfrog To Dancing With Madness Mending for me was like Striking broken matches The only thing that helped me Was a raging sweet melody I’ve had a hard time, hard time healing Hard time, hard time healing There’s some old baggage that I just wanna let go Had a hard time, hard time healing Hard time, hard time healing I’m gonna write me a song and pour out my soul The Great I Am To Relatively Easy Sick Boy to Cover Me Up The music always sees me I’ve Had a hard time, hard time healing Hard time, hard time healing There’s some old baggage I just wanna let go I’ve Had a hard time, hard time healing Hard time, hard time healing Gonna write me a song and pour out my soul Can’t stay down When my head’s banging & my feet are tapping This it aint no part time feeling There’s some happy happy hapnin’ So meet me on the other side We’ve had a hard time, hard time healing Hard time, hard time healing There’s some old baggage we just wanna let go Had a hard time, hard time healing Hard time, hard time healing Gonna write us a song and pour out our souls oh Gonna write us a song and pour out our souls oh

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released June 20, 2023

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