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SW​:​S Retreat - September 2015

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    Our retreats pair professional songwriters with veterans and active-duty service members to write songs about their military experiences and returning home. Kimberly Burris, Dustin Crites, Abraham Galvan, Herbie Hernandez, Ken Jordan, Karl Mulling, and Clayton Webster participated in the September 2015 retreat.

    These songs are their stories and are recorded on site at retreats. They capture a song just hours after being written, like the song taking its first breath.
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STUFF THEY MAKE YOU DO Karl Mulling / Gary Nicholson Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again What they put you through for cuttin’ loose with your friends Might seem like a good idea at the time But the punishment is always worse than the crime Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again We were drunk and loud having too much fun Doing what we knew we should have never done Shooting bottle rockets at alpha company They made me crawl across the field on my hands and knees Throwing water balloons off the third floor Shooting up the barracks with paintball wars Running up and down the hills all day long Do an obstacle course with a gas mask on Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again What they put you through for cuttin’ loose with your friends Might seem like a good idea at the time But the punishment is always worse than the crime Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again Knocked down to PFC for not saluting Had clean the latrine doing extra duty Dig a hole in the ground to spend the night in Fill it up next morning like it’s never been Get in full battle rattle ruck ten miles Eat dirt all day and come up with smile You know they’re only trying to thicken your skin Cause survival depends on the shape you’re in Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again What they put you through for cuttin’ loose with your friends Might seem like a good idea at the time But the punishment is always worse than the crime Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again The ones you trust are the ones that push you hard They show you how it’s gonna be when you’re out in the real war Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again What they put you through for cuttin’ loose with your friends Might seem like a good idea at the time But the punishment is always worse than the crime Stuff they make you do so you never want to do that again
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Never Land 02:51
NEVER LAND Brook Sweitzer / Darden Smith / Amy Speace / Monte Warden I wanted to see the world All the people I could meet But I just saw the earth From 30,000 feet Never land I never land Never land I never land Galaxies at night Time to think of you You're somewhere down there Behind that wall of blue Never land I never land Never land I never land I carry fire out there on my wings But I never see the damage that that fire brings Cause I never land I never land I never land I never land Fly and fly and fly Fly and fly and fly Fly and fly and fly Never land
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I’M STILL THERE Clayton Webster / Monte Warden There’s miles and miles of beach outside my door But I couldn’t be any further from the shore Momma, I cannot tell you where I am But I’m learning what it takes to be a man I spent last night underneath the stars The very same ones shining where you are So before you say your prayers tonight Know that when I close my eyes I’m still there in my bed down the hall Asking for one more story, that’s all Momma they can send me anywhere But home is where the heart is, and I’m still there In the care package you sent there was nothing wrong By the time it came back to me the cookies were gone The video of Mary’s recital sure was great Tell her I hope to be home by her birthday Momma I can’t answer all the questions you asked But I’ll tell you all my stories when I get back Every day feels like I’m walking in a dream There’s only one thing that’s carrying me I’m still there in my bed down the hall Asking for one more story, that’s all Momma they can send me anywhere But home is where the heart is, and I’m still there But home is where the heart is, and I’m still there
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Rumors Fly 03:08
RUMORS FLY Kimberly Burris / Amy Speace I was the lowest on the totem pole A girl in the company of men First time away from family Trying to prove myself to them You go in a little naïve But then you learn the facts The first thing that they'll tell you Is to watch your back – cause Rumors fly Rumors fly From boot camp to combat School house to the fleet They give you the unwritten laws The things you should never speak Don't be that girl who tells the truth So I kept my mouth shut and I never left my room – cause Rumors fly Rumors fly It was early in the morning I had everything to lose There was a TV to my right I was the stranger in the room I was the first to wake and quietly I dressed I never said a word just left Cause rumors fly Cause rumors fly You know it's gonna happen You never have to say that word Don't do anything to fuck it up For all the other girls
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ALL WARS ARE JUST THE SAME Kimberly Burris / Ken Jordan / Amy Speace Even though I served I didn’t really know Didn’t really get it till I watched him go My only son, maybe I’d seen too much I was afraid didn’t make a fuss When I was in ‘Nam it was one day at a time Didn’t think of home life was on the line No time to worry and I didn’t care To my folks at home it wasn’t fair To those of us who’ve been there It’s shoot kill and maim Forget the propaganda All wars are just the same As his carrier came out of the mist My heart remembered what it had missed I was one of the few who got to see My baby boy come home to me To those of us who’ve been there No matter what the name Forget the propaganda All wars are just the same To those of us who’ve been there Call it by any name No matter what they tell us All wars are just the same
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Triggers 03:02
TRIGGERS Dustin Crites / Darden Smith I remember crowded market places Trying to read the looks on all the faces When I was in Iraq Now that I've come back And the traffic on i635 Gets bumper to bumper You know that I Just get kinda mad Well that's the kind of day I've had I got these triggers on my soul Touch that trigger I'm gonna blow I just want some peace So my triggers can get released I used to come home to a screaming wife But I knew I didn't want that kinda life I'd rather be alone Then not have a loving home I love you cause you are nothing like that You think with your heart before you act Like I'm the only other one Under the sun I got these triggers on my soul I don't want that trigger to blow You give me the peace So my triggers can be released I'll never be all the way clear I might get edgy I might get weird I just wanna be a good man So baby try and understand About those triggers on my soul I don't want them to blow Let's make love let's make peace Let's let those triggers get released
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A MAN ON A MISSION Abraham Galvan / Gary Nicholson / Darden Smith I’ll tell you about a man on a mission Named Abraham Divine intervention Called to take a stand Little did he know Why the Lord said his name Many are called and few are chosen To be a Christian soldier He’s a man on a mission Abraham on a mission Through the good times and the bad times The hard times he endured Once he was a devil-dog Now his heart is pure Little did he know The Lord had a bigger plan for Abraham Many are called and few are chosen To be a Christian soldier He’s a man on a mission Abraham on a mission No greater love than Jeremiah 29:11 He’s walking through the fires of hell Carrying his brothers up to heaven Through the power of the Holy Ghost He’s picking up the pieces He’s gonna put that heavy load In the hands of Jesus Many are called and few are chosen He’s a real Christian soldier A man on a mission Abraham on a mission
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Friends 02:48
FRIENDS Kimberly Burris / Gary Nicholson Friends will always get you through No matter what this world does to you You laugh with the good times And cry with the bad times Every time you need someone to turn to Friends will get you through Sometimes all you need is a way to have some fun You might talk all through the night or just get drunk You can tell ‘em anything they’re gonna listen to you Whatever life puts in your way friends will get you through Friends will always get you through No matter what this world does to you You laugh with the good times And cry with the bad times Every time you need someone to turn to Friends will get you through You know you may never see them again But what you have together will never end Moving on isn’t easy it’s hard to let ‘em go They might be the closest family you’ll ever know Friends will always get you through No matter what this world does to you You laugh with the good times And cry with the bad times Every time you need someone to turn to Friends will get you through
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Moving Song 02:56
MOVING SONG Herbie Hernandez / Darden Smith 18 years old I could see The passing train wouldn’t wait for me A new direction was what I’d need 18 years old I could see That I gotta keep moving I can’t stand still I gotta keep moving I always will I learned hard lessons and I grew up fast It’s hard to hold on when nothing lasts My wife and my brothers and my peace of mind All caught another train rolling down the line So I gotta keep moving Try to make things right Gotta keep moving While I’m stlll alive I gotta keep moving Can’t look back Over my shoulder Don’t look back I had to find a way to prove to myself There’s something more than hate and guilt And love Where is the love It wasn’t in the bottle and it wasn’t in the pills I was looking then and I’m looking still For love I used to love to sleep but not no more Nightmare always coming through my door Haunted by demons night and day Just to get peace the only way Is I gotta keep moving Moving on Gotta keep moving I sing a moving song
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Soft Spot 04:55
SOFT SPOT Herbie Hernandez / Amy Speace I was only 18 just days out of school I signed up to serve to do what I could A boy surrounded by men with fresh blood on their hands Carrying the weight of the Combat Infantry Badge I had a soft spot I had always protected I took on too much it got tough but I did what was expected It was a tough job but I would not neglect it, my soft spot kept me connected I carried a load more than half of my weight The things we needed to do – shoot, move, and communicate Old enough for a gun but too young for a drink In hell you survive a minute at a time cause you're too tired to think I had a soft spot I was neglecting But when things got rough my skin had to grow tough that was expected It was a tough job and I lost the connection To who I was and what I was protecting I had a friend who was about the same age We trained and we fought we drank and we talked we gambled with our days It was almost midnight the end of September On the side of the road shrouded in smoke My breath in his lungs but there was no hope Nothing could be done he lost the chase I'll carry this – for the rest of my days He had a soft spot that kept us connected We took on too much it's never enough no one's protected It's a tough job I guess that's what I expected It was too much I’ll never forget it It was too much I’ll never forget it
11.
WAS THAT REALLY ME Brook Sweitzer / Monte Warden I didn’t keep the citations I should have, I guess An old drawer holds the medals They pinned on my chest I’m proud to have served It was the right thing to do But sometimes I feel like a stranger In a braver man’s shoes Did I really do that? Was that really me? Did that really happen? Or, was it a dream? Sometimes lookin’ back It’s hard to believe Did I really do that? Was that really me? I flew a B-52 An old tough, buff of a whale And, if its wings could talk You’d hear a hell of a tale From Diego Garcia, north to Afghanistan Armed with MK-82s and a dozen J-Dams Did I really do that? Was that really me? Did that really happen? Or, was it a dream? Sometimes lookin’ back It’s hard to believe Did I really do that? Was that really me?
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JUST GETTING STARTED Ken Jordan / Darden Smith / Gary Nicholson 1970 to 71 Just another kid in Vietnam I saw things you wouldn’t believe Sitting here talking man it’s taking me back Stories start coming I start to lose track If I’ve told this one before, just stop me Cause I’m just getting started Saigon, Phu Bai, Ben Hoa, Danang The mountains of Pleiku, no two the same I carry these places across all time I tell you these stories so you can see Down deep into the soul of me And telling this story keeps that part of me alive I’m just getting started Soldiers go away some come home The memories live on The memories just live on I’m just getting started I’m just getting started

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released November 5, 2015

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