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SW​:​S Retreat - October 2016

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    Our retreats pair professional songwriters with veterans, military families and couples, and active-duty service members to write songs about their military experiences and returning home. Bob Dallas, Katrina Dinan, Marty Dinan, Lisa Geartz, Steve Morales, Todd Rosenfield, Amy Tomisman, Evelyn Valentino, Curt Vincent, Maria Vincent, Gary Washock, and Susie Washock participated in the October 2016 retreat.

    These songs are their stories and are recorded on site at retreats. They capture a song just hours after being written, like the song taking its first breath.
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This Time I'm Not Alone 03:36
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THIS TIME I’M NOT ALONE Jay Clementi / James House / Bob Dallas / Marty Dinan / Josh Geartz / Andres Jimenez / Steve Morales / Todd Rosenfield / Rob Spohr / Roger Strade / Amy Lynn Tomisman / Curt Vincent / Gary Washock All that chaos all that hurting Eyes wide shut and moving on All that worry all that searching I’m tired of these demons I’m ready for a sling and the stone This time I’ve got hope And friends to get me home Got the keys to cope Ammunition for my soul Headed down that road With everything I know Here I go again This time I’m not alone If you see me please don’t judge me Unless you’ve marched in my boots I’ve seen black sunsets, I’ve smelled fear and If you took the time you’d see the proof This time I’ve got hope And friends to get me home Got the keys to cope Ammunition for my soul Headed down that road With everything I know Here I go again This time I’m not alone Don’t think that I don’t care Standing there with that 1000-yard stare Been down that highway of tears Somehow I found my way here This time I’ve got hope And friends to get me home Got the keys to cope Ammunition for my soul Headed down that road With everything I know Here I go again This time not alone © 2016 Go With A River Publishing (BMI) © 2016 Sony/ATV Cross Keys Publishing/Gary Nicholson Music (ASCAP)
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Far Away 03:47
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FAR AWAY Bob Dallas / James House When I wake up and start my day Read the paper see what it has to say Don’t take long before I hear your name Don’t know why or who's to blame When the rain comes and it’s hot And your memory is all I’ve got I should know you’re here to stay And you’re never very far away When it’s dark and the silence is all around me You’re the only one I hear I can lock away the loss and the heartache But I can’t escape the fear I had to learn that change comes slowly Time will tell and memories fade But some nights I’m still lonely And you’re never very far way When it’s dark and the silence is all around me You’re the only one I hear I can lock away the heartache But I can’t escape the fear I had to learn that change comes slowly Time will tell and memories fade But some nights I’m still lonely And you’re never very far way © 2016 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) / Go With A River Publishing (BMI)
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Army Of One 04:02
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ARMY OF ONE Lisa Geartz / Terry Radigan Momma was an 18-year-old runaway Daddy was trucking down the A1A With a beer in his hand driving with his knees Saw her long black hair Blowing in the breeze Blowing in the breeze It was a one-day stand written in the stars Two sweaty kids in the back of that car Accidentally stumbling on destiny Cause I - yes I - I was meant to be I was meant to be And from that day on I was on my own Daddy built houses but we never had a home Every day was living in a little war zone I was fighting those battles all alone Nowhere to go nowhere to run So I became an army of one I became an army of one I learned to tie my shoes - dry my tears Make my supper - disappear Cut my hair - clean my clothes Get myself off to school Hoping nobody would know Hoping nobody would know That I was signing momma’s name to permission slips Cause it was hard to catch her in between sips Daddy’s always working he never had time He was too busy with those little white lines With those little white lines And from day one I was on my own Daddy built houses but we never had a home Every day was living in a little war zone I was fighting those battles all alone Nowhere to go nowhere to run So I became an army of one I became an army of one I was looking for the family I never had Uncle Sam seemed like he’d be a pretty good dad Tell me where to go tell me what to do And for the first time in my life I’d have a curfew Brothers and sisters who had my back The first time I knew peace was in Iraq And I met someone who felt like home Who fought my battles Like they were his own Like they were his own I didn’t have to go I didn’t have to run I didn’t have to be an army of one I didn’t have to be an army of one I didn’t have to be an army of one © 2016 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music / Catherine the Great Music (ASCAP)
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All I Leave Behind 04:26
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ALL I LEAVE BEHIND Marty Dinan / Darden Smith I’ve got pocketfuls of medals Buckets full of pride Bosnia to Baghdad, Tikrit to Kandahar I did that ride I was always looking out For my brothers to the right and the left I forgot to take care of the ones I care about the most Whose love I carry in my chest All I leave All I leave behind All I didn’t take care of back home Weighs upon my mind My wife and my children Stand the test of time How will ever I make up For lost time How will I ever get back All I leave behind So boys, I’m sorry I put you second in line I came home angry, confused And took it out on you most the time I’m sorry for all the birthdays and holidays Everything I missed I’m sorry for all the late nights I didn’t give That goodnight kiss All I leave All I leave behind All I didn’t take care of back home Weighs upon my mind You’re still my children Till the end of time How ‘bout we try to make up For lost time Even though we will never get back All we leave behind My love please forgive me for all the years You kept the home fires burning when I wasn’t there to dry your tears A thousand tomorrows all in a line You will never be the one I leave behind All I leave All I leave behind All I didn’t take care of back home Weighs upon my mind All that I fight for At the risk of dying I just want to make up For lost time Even though I will never get back All I leave behind © 2016 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music / Darden Smith Music (ASCAP)
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Sonshine 02:59
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SONSHINE Amy Lynn Tomisman / Jay Clementi I raised you right I raised you strong Did the best I could all along Just thinking back to those campfire days Those Christmas mornings and baseball games Warms my soul I just want you to know My love my love is everlasting for you There’s nothing you could ever do To make me feel any other way Sonshine of mine Sonshine of mine From my past I was broken I hid all it cause I was hoping You’d never feel a sliver of my pain No one deserves to feel that way I hope you understand Can you take me as I am My love my love is everlasting for you There’s nothing you could ever do To make me feel any other way Sonshine of mine Sonshine of mine Now you know the truth - You know what I went through Some dark dark times But you were always my sweet Sonshine My love my love is everlasting for you There’s nothing you could ever do To make me feel any other way Sonshine of mine Sonshine of mine © 2016 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music / Sony-ATV Cross Keys (ASCAP)
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Takes Me Home 02:47
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TAKES ME HOME Steve Morales / Terry Radigan The roar of the crowd The crack of the bat The pop of the glove My Dodgers hat It takes me back it takes me home Far from the war zone One big strum A fat G chord I sing it out I praise the lord It takes me back it takes me home Far from the war zone My mind my body or sometimes both Are back on mama’s couch Watching her favorite shows Little dreams of home Get me through the tough days Cause I’m a long way from Cal-I-For-Ni-A I’m a long way from Cal-I-For-Ni-A The sound of her voice The curl of her hair Her corny little jokes Her “don’t you dare” stare They take me back they take me home Far from the war zone My mind my body or sometimes both Are lying in the arms of the girl I love most Little dreams of home Get me through the tough days Cause I’m a long way from Cal-I-For-Ni-A I’m a long way from Cal-I-For-Ni-A A mansion on the coast M on my arm My little Stevearino He’s my good luck charm One day that’s gonna be my home Far from the war zone My mind my body or sometimes both Are far from this desert out searching for hope These little dreams Get me through the tough days Cause I’m a long way from Cal-I-For-Ni-A I’m a long way from Cal-I-For-Ni-A The roar of the crowd The crack of the bat The pop of the glove My Dodgers hat © 2016 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music / Catherine The Great Music (ASCAP)
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Nobody To Greet You 03:45
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NOBODY TO GREET YOU Gary Washock / Jay Clementi 600 miles away deployed in a gulf port town She didn’t want to be a part-time single mom no way no how But it was my duty to do my job and I loved it too I lied when I said baby, I do it for the kids and I do it for you And there’s no one but me to cuss When the families are pulling up And there’s nobody to greet you at the plane Nobody to greet you at the plane That kinda lonely hurts so bad You’re the last one left on the damn tarmac Nobody to greet you at the plane Was everything you missed in vein All those candle birthday wishes A thousand goodnight daddy kisses It drives you insane - when there’s nobody To greet you at the plane Sometimes mistakes have a silver-lining blessing I got a second chance to be a family man, i learned my lesson I’m just thankful she didn’t know that old Seabee She deserves so much more she deserves the new me I’m so proud of the life we’ve made And I’ll never go back to those days When there’s nobody to greet you at the plane Nobody to greet you at the plane That kinda lonely hurts so bad You’re the last one left on the damn tarmac Nobody to greet you at the plane Was everything you missed in vein All those candle birthday wishes A thousand goodnight daddy kisses It drives you insane - when there’s nobody To greet you at the plane When there’s nobody to greet you at the plane Nobody to greet you at the plane That kinda lonely hurts so bad You’re the last one left on the damn tarmac Nobody to greet you at the plane It will make you cry it will make you change Now I’m there for those birthday wishes And a thousand goodnight daddy kisses It drives you insane - when there’s nobody To greet you at the plane © 2017 Sony/ATV Cross Keys Publishing/Gary Nicholson Music (ASCAP)
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Soul Of A Soldier 03:47
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SOUL OF A SOLDIER Todd Rosenfield / Darden Smith Soul of a soldier Soul of a soldier Susie Qs and Ambien Either I’m a zombie or I’m a wreck Between 1:15 and a quarter to 2:00 Brother it’s all hands on deck Crackle on the phone line Give my buddies a call To see who’s doing good, who’s barely holding on And who just hit a wall Soul of a soldier Soul of a soldier It never goes away The feeling never fades So many faces in damned places It takes a heavy toll On the soul of a soldier Family and friends whisper How I’ve changed Why am I so different Why so strange Suddenly it’s morning, Tuesday The sun is in the sky Every day’s like Halloween I’m all dressed up as a regular guy We held each other’s lives In each other’s hands Till someone has your back like that How could you understand Soul of a soldier Soul of a soldier It never goes away The feeling never fades So many faces in damned places It takes a heavy toll On the soul of a soldier © 2016 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music / Darden Smith Music (ASCAP)
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Survivor's Guilt 03:56
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SURVIVOR’S GUILT Curt Vincent / James House Joined the army at seventeen Didn’t know nothing if you know what I mean Followed their orders did what I was told Never thought I’d live to see thirty years old If they needed somebody I’d raise my hand But I was too young for Vietnam Being a soldier in a time of peace Gets a little tough for your conscious to ease I was ready and willing to go I even filled out my will Here I am, I’m back home Living with survivor’s guilt Well you fight as you train And you train as you fight I didn’t run I didn’t hide Some say I’m lucky I don’t think I am Somehow it made feel less of a man I was ready and willing to go I even filled out my will Here I am, I’m back home Living with survivor’s guilt I know it ain’t my fault Still it sticks in my craw I did what I was told to do Just the luck of the draw At the VFW on a bar stool I hear their stories and I feel like a fool I hope this time they don’t call on me When they do I just have to leave I was ready and willing to go I even filled out my will Here I am, I’m back home Survivor’s guilt Survivor’s guilt © 2016 SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP) / Go With A River Publishing (BMI)
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Waiting 03:31
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WAITING Darden Smith / Terry Radigan / Katrina Dinan / Lisa Geartz / Cathy Jimenez / Daniela Pina / Krista Spohr / Kelly Barone Strade / Evelyn Valentino / Maria Vincent / Susie Washock Waiting for the phone to ring For a letter from the field For him to fall asleep and stay asleep Waiting the wounds to heal Waiting for him not to swerve around a pothole Or jump at the 4th of July Waiting for him not to have his back to the wall And the terror in his eyes We are waiting, waiting, waiting We are waiting, waiting, waiting Waiting to be a family 9 to 5 holidays and weekends Waiting for him to just open up And be my best friend Waiting to stop walking on eggshells And finally be set free Waiting for it to be my turn Let it be just about me We are waiting, waiting, waiting We are waiting, waiting, waiting We are waiting, waiting, waiting We are waiting, waiting, waiting I waited to feel his touch at night Laying there all alone Some days I’m still waiting For him to come back home I’m watching the days get shorter And the leaves are falling down If we can make through the winter The spring will come around Let’s all go and look at we’re creating We’re worth the… We are waiting, waiting, waiting We are waiting, waiting, waiting Worth the waiting Worth the waiting © 2016 Darden Smith Music / Catherine The Great Music / SongwritingWith:Soldiers music (ASCAP)
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Baby Get Out 03:01
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BABY GET OUT Jay Clementi / Group Baby get out, get out You know I don’t mean it Baby get out, get out Sometimes I just need my freedom Just a minute to catch my breath Shake off those demons So we can keep dreaming Baby get out, get out I love me some you But I need me some me Just a little time Just got to let me be Baby get out, get out You know I don’t mean it Baby get out, get out Sometimes I just need my freedom Just a minute to catch my breath Shake off those demons So we can keep dreaming Baby get out, get out Did you hear what I said Baby get out, get out You know I don’t mean it Baby get out, get out Sometimes I just need my freedom Just a minute to catch my breath Shake off those demons So we can keep dreaming Baby get out, get out Baby get out, get out © 2016 Sony-ATV Cross Keys / SongwritingWith:Soldiers Music (ASCAP)

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released November 29, 2016

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