SW​:​S April 26​-​28, 2013 Retreat

by SongwritingWith:Soldiers

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Songs from our April 2013 collaborative retreat, pairing active duty U.S. Soldiers and Veterans with professional songwriters Darden Smith, Jay Clementi, Darrell Scott and Gary Nicholson, as well as a surprise visit by journalist and singer songwriter Robin Meade from HLN morning show. Help us offer this program to as many veterans as possible. Make your donation to the cause by purchasing our music.

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released 21 June 2013
Soldiers include Chris Chirco, Dustin Crites, Palermo Deschamps, Todd Hanna, Kathi Long, AJ Merrifield, Stacy Pearsall, Nikki Shaw, Winnie Smith and Dustin Wright

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Founded by Austin, Texas singer-songwriter Darden Smith, SongwritingWith:Soldiers is a non-profit 501c (3) organization. Our mission is to assist in the emotional healing process of both active duty U.S. soldiers and veterans through collaborative songwriting. ... more

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Track Name: Robin Meade, Darrell Scott - Be Right Here, Right Now
I never dreamed I would find you
In the middle of my war
When the bitterness can blind you
Make you forget your living for
I’ve got no illusions
I’m a hard one to love
But I think we can do this
And we rise above

Let that sand in the hour glass run
Let the past be past what’s done is done
We’ll worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes
And be right here right now

There’s a new moon rising
There’s a wide open road
Don’t know where we’re going
This is the great unknown
But here’s what I’m saying
We’re making this up (as we go)
I think we can do this
And we can rise above

No fake fronts
No brick walls
Here and now
We have it all
Track Name: Gary Nicholson, Darrell Scott, Palermo Deschamps - I'm A Soldier
TO GO WHERE NO ONE WOULD DARE TO GO
AND DO WHAT NO ONE WOULD VOLUNTEER
TO PAY THE PRICE AND SACRIFICE
I KNOW THAT'S THE REASON I'M HERE

I AM A SOLDIER I WILL GO THERE
I WILL FIGHT FOR THE FREEDOM OF ALL MEN
I AM A SOLDIER I WILL GO THERE
I'M YOUR FATHER YOUR BROTHER YOUR SON YOUR FRIEND
I 'M THE ONE YOU WANT TO BE THERE
FOR YOUR CHILDREN FOR YOUR COUNTRY TILL THE END
AM A SOLDIER I WILL GO THERE
COUNT ON ME AGAIN AND AGAIN

IN THE HEAT OF BATTLE OR IN THE COOL OF PEACE
REST ASSURED I HAVE YOUR BACK NO MATTER WHAT IT IS
IN THE LIGHT OF DAY IN THE DARK OF NIGHT
DON'T WORRY I'M READY FOR THE FIGHT

I AM A SOLDIER I WILL GO THERE
I WILL FIGHT FOR THE FREEDOM OF ALL MEN
I AM A SOLDIER I WILL GO THERE
I'M YOUR FATHER YOUR BROTHER YOUR SON YOUR FRIEND
I 'M THE ONE YOU WANT TO BE THERE
FOR YOUR CHILDREN FOR YOUR COUNTRY TILL THE END
AM A SOLDIER I WILL GO THERE
COUNT ON ME AGAIN AND AGAIN

I'M A SOLDIER I WILL GO THERE
I WILL GO THERE FOR YOU
IN THE HEAT OF BATTLE OR IN THE LIGHT OF PEACE
REST ASSURED I HAVE YOUR BACK NO MATTER WHAT IT IS

FOR THE COUNTRY AND FOR GOD

I AM A SOLDIER

I AM A SOLDIER
AND I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU
'LL BE THERE FOR YOU
FOR THE COUNTRY AND FOR GOD
I AM A SOLDIER

THE SUN IS SHINING AND THE WAVES ARE MOVING, BABY BE SURE THAT MY LOVE FOR YOU STILL HAS MORE MOVEMENT THAT THE WAVES OF THE SEA AND THAT IS SHINING STRONGER THAT THE RAYS OF THE SUN

EVEN IN A CLOUDED DAY YOU KNOW THAT THE SUN STILL SHINING BEHIN THE CLOUDS, SO DON'T EVER DOUBT MY DARLING THAT MY LOVE STILL THERE FOR YOU.

I COULD GO BLIND BUT FOR EVER I WILL SEE YOU IN MY HEAD, I FEEL YOUR PRESENCE EVEN WHEN YOU ARE ALREADY LEFT. YOUR ESSENCE OF A INCREADIBLE WOMAN WILL FOR EVER MAKE MY DRUNK, DON'T LEAVE ME MY DARLING BECAUSE IF YOU LEAVE I WILL STOP TO EXIST.

LET ME GIVE JUST ONE REASON WHY YOU ARE BELONG HERE WITH ME, THE EARTH WILL STOP MOVING AND EVERYTHING WILL BE DEAD. I WANT YO HERE WITH ME FOR EVER AND EVER, BABY PLEASE DON'T GO, DON'T LEAVE ME ALONG AGAIN.

I'D BE LEAVING IN THE DARK EVER SINCE YOU SAY YOU WERE LEAVING, I WAT TO SEE AGAIN, SO PLEASE SAY YOU WILL STAY AND THAT NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE NOT LEAVING.

YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE, THERE IS NO DOUBT ABOUT IT, SO WHY ARE YOU TORTURING ME TELLING ME THAT YOU ARE LEAVING JUST TO HEAR ME CRYING.

IF YOU WANT ME TO BEG YOU, YOU ARE PUSHING TO FAR, THERE IS NOT NEED TO HUMILIATE ME, BABE MAYBE WE JUST SHOULD BE FRIENDS.

NO MATTER HOW MUCH I LOVE IF YOU ALREADY MADE UP YOUR MIND, IF YOU REALLY ARE LEAVING, I JUST WISH YO GOOD LUCK.
Track Name: Darrell Scott - I'm Not Supposed To Be Here
i'm not supposed to be here, im not supposed to tell
i'm to lie down in this darkness and live here in this hell
make believe that nothing happened, make believe i'm still ok
this pain inside me fights me and will not go away
it never goes away

i'm not supposed to be here- i'm the accidental child
i live my accidental lifetime- and live in your denial
but i will break this code of silence- this shame is killing me
i will break the chains that bind me- this caged bird will be free

i'm not supposed to be here, i'm not supposed to tell
i'm to lie down in my darkness and live here in this hell
make believe that nothing happened, make believe that i'm ok
oh the pain inside me fights me and will not go away

(inst)

if i am supposed to be here- with all my strength renewed
then demons, i dispatch you- to the dark side of the moon
and there you will be watching me- as my life from you begins
when i know i'm supposed to be here i will have my true revenge
i will have my true revenge
Track Name: Darden Smith - Illustrated Man
LET ME TELL YOU A STORY
WRITTEN ON MY SKIN
MIGHT HELP YOU UNDERSTAND
THE SHAPE I'M IN
THIS ONE'S FOR MY BUDDY
HE'S GONE AS GONE CAN BE
EVERYTIME TIME I REACH OUT
HE'S RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME
THIS ONE'S FOR MY LOVER
ON THE INSIDE OF MY ARM
SHE'S MY LITTLE GEISHA
SHE KEEPS ME SAFE AND WARM

YOU MAY THINK I'M CRAZY
YOU MAY THINK I DON'T HAVE A PLAN
I'M A DECORATED SOLDIER
I'M AN ILLUSTRATED MAN

GOT FOUR LETTERS ON ONE HAND
ANOTHER FOUR ON THE RIGHT
HIT 'EM WITH LOVE THEN HIT 'EM WITH HOPE
WHEN SOMEBODY WANTS A FIGHT
I GOT A FEW DARK SECRETS
THAT WON'T EVER LET ME BE
I PUT 'EM IN SOME PLACES
THAT VERY FEW CAN SEE
BUT BABY IF YOU LOVE ME
YOU CAN TAKE A CLOSER LOOK
THIS INK IS JUST A BOOKMARK
AND I'M AN OPEN BOOK

YOU MAY THINK I'M CRAZY
YOU MAY THINK I DON'T HAVE A PLAN
I'M A DECORATED SOLDIER
I'M AN ILLUSTRATED MAN
YOU MAY THINK I'M CRAZY
YOU MAY THINK I DON'T HAVE A PLAN
I'M A DECORATED SOLDIER
I'M AN ILLUSTRATED MAN
Track Name: Gary Nicholson - Involuntary Erection
INVOLUNTARY ERECTION
THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED TO ME
WHEN MY PARACHUTE DIDN'T OPEN
AND I FELL A THOUSAND FEET
WHEN FALL A LITTLE TOO HARD ON YOUR BACK
AND YOUR NERVES DON'T KNOW HOW TO REACT
YOU GET A INVOLUNTARY ERECTION
THAT NURSE HAS THE CURE I NEED

MY SOLDIER CAME TO ATTENTION LOOKING AT THE CEILING
STANDING UP AND WATCHING ME SHAVE
I TOLD THE DOCTOR TO PRESCRIBE ME A WOMEN
I CAN'T GO ON THIS WAY

THEY SENT ME HOME AND I SCARED MY WIFE
I SAID HONEY YOU COULD SAVE MY LIFE
I THINK YOUR IN THE BEST POSSIBLE POSITION
TO BE MY FAVORITE PHYSICIAN

MUSCLES START TO SPAMSM THINGS START SWELLING

BLOODS GOING SOUTH GET DRY IN THE MOUTH
YOU LOOSE ALL CONTROL

INVOLUNTARY ERECTION
I'M GONNA N EED SOME HELP
Track Name: Darrell Scott - Secrets
you can't see me,  but i'm right here
you can talk talk talk about me, but i can hear what you say...
i'm not invisible but you think i am
i could scream my pain at you but you will never understand
the secrets ...that i hold-      secrets ...can't be told

you have your hopes and dreams that fly far away
i'm behind my prison bars praying, lord help me thru another day...
secrets...can't be told.  secrets...that i hold

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-i am burdened with the shame and your conscince is free
i'm shackled to your past and you'll never know what you've done to me
with these secrets... (TA)

no one can touch me i -think i'd break
this souvenir you've left me gave me more than this one soul can take
i'm in slow motion i,  can't be alone
my thoughts are my enemy
my enemy is everywhere i go...i got secrets that i hold...secrets can't be told

i'm falling in the dark you're rising in the sun
my scars keep going deeper- you'll never see the damage you have done
whose secrets do i hold?
whose secrets can't be told...
.... i know your ...........secret
Track Name: Darden Smith - Freedom Song
UT I’VE HEARD SONGS OF A SOLDIER
THE TAPPING OF HIS FEET
ON SLAP BOARDS LIKE A DRUM
A SOLDIER WHO HAS NO FREEDOM

I’VE NEVER HEARD A FREEDOM SONG
BUT I’VE HEARD THE SONGS OF MY PEOPLE
THE SOLDIER MARCHING
THE ONE WHOSE SOUL
PLAYS ME LIKE BANJOS

STILL I NEVER HEARD A FREEDOM SONG
BUT YET I HEARD THE CRIES
IN THE SILVER RAIN
I’VE HEARD HIS PAIN
AND WHEN I ASK “WHAT WENT WRONG?”
HE SAYS “A SOLDIER HAS NO SONG”

IF YOU HEAR A FREEDOM SONG
IF YOU HEAR THEM MARCHING
KNOW THAT IT’S A SOLDIER
WHOSE SOUL
HAS BEEN PLAYED LIKE A BANJO
Track Name: Gary Nicholson - We Were Watched Over
Humvee in the middle of the night
Racing home before the morning light
Presence patrol doing what we were told to do
Out of nowhere and IED
Blew up right in front of me
Tower of fire somehow we made it through

We were watched over
We were watched over
We were watched over
From above

We took incoming all night long
Hitting us hard till the dawn
Then came that moment time froze for me
I hear the whistle I saw the flash
I felt the gravel hit my back
Gave me reason to get down on my knees

Yea we were trained and we were doing our job
Someone else was calling those shots
Something divine protected us
You an call it karma call it luck
But I know we were saved that night by love
Track Name: Darden Smith, Gary Nicholson - The Way I Came
I ain’t listened to a song in a long, long time
I couldn’t let the world inside of my mind
I feel so tired from carrying a heavy load
I open my eyes and just see a long, long road

I wish I could go home the way I came
Be the girl I was before my whole world changed
I wish my tears could wash away the pain
And I could just go home the way I came

All the hurt, the tears it’s hard to cope
I’m tired of waking up with no hope
The ones I love should not have to live
Knowing that I’ve little left to give

I’d love to have some love
I’d love to have some peace
I’d love to come in from the cold
I just want to be
The girl I used to be
I don’t want to cry anymore
I don’t want to cry anymore
Track Name: Jay Clementi - What I Gotta Do
We use to drive out, to trinity levy
put make shift hammock on, the roof of that chevy
Falling in love, making and plans in the moonlight
Staying up all night
always felt just right with you
With you

You got a way about you like no one else
so beautiful put everyone before yourself
I had it all , somewhere along the way
got turned around forgot about the vows i said that day
with you
with you

c em F
Wish that I never would have let you down
It's too late can't go back
wish that I could somehow
get back our love
it was me it wasn't you
tell me what I gotta do

if we could make it back, through hell again
I know we'de be closer than we've ever been
baby we can do this, don't listen to the doubt
I know we can make it, but I can't do it without

Wish that I never would have let you down
It's too late can't go back
wish that I could somehow
get it back the way it was

Wish that I never would have let you down
Don't give up Let me make it up
To you somehow
gotta get back your love
it was me it wasn't you
tell me what I gotta do
Track Name: Darden Smith - Here I Am
Here I Am in colors beyond your imagination
Red for the blood ive shed
Blue for the tears running down
Brown for my earthly connections
Black for the darkness that surrounds me
Through it all
Here I stand
Here I am

Here I am through all their smoke filled lies
Like wipe your face, stand firm, it didn’t hurt
You didn’t see that don’t cry
They’d say you’re in the military now don’t go embarrassing the brass
Get your head back up
Well all you can kiss my ass
Cause I am strong
Here I stand
Here I am

I’ve lost my sisters and brothers
I’m not gonna let it bring me down
Cause here I stand here before you
To tell you what’s true
I stand here for me
I stand for them too

Yes here I am full of desire, hope and courage
Affection, innocence, pride and peace
I didn’t think I would ever get here
Didn’t think I could rise above
But in the darkness I remembered
I remembered love
So here I am
Take a deep breath
Let it out
Yes baby here I am
Boldly stand before you, here I am
Finally, finally, finally, here I am
Track Name: Darden Smith, Gary Nicholson - Something Bigger Than Myself
I GUESS FOR ME IT'S NEVER BEEN ABOUT ME
IT'S ALWAYS ABOUT SOMEBODY ELSE
I FIND SOMEONE IN NEED
I START TRYING TO SEE
SOMEWAY THAT I CAN HELP

SERVE SOMETHING BIGGER THAN MYSELF
FIND A WAY THAT I CAN HELP
BRING THE WORLD A LITTLE MORE LIGHT
TRY TO TURN SOME WRONG TO RIGHT
AND SERVE SOMETHING BIGGER THAN MYSELF

TRYING TO FIND WAY I SIGNED UP ONE DAY
IT TOOK ME TO A FOREIGN LAND
FOUND PEOPLE JUST LIKE US LOOKING FOR A LITTLE MORE LOVE
ALL A PART OF A HIGHER PLAN

SOMETHING BIGGER THAN MYSELF
FIND A WAY THAT I CAN HELP
BRING THE WORLD A LITTLE MORE LIGHT
TRY TO TURN SOME WRONG TO RIGHT
AND SERVE SOMETHING BIGGER THAN MYSELF

I MADE SOME SACRIFICE
TRYING TO DO WHAT'S RIGHT
EVERYTHING CHANGED WHILE I WAS GONE
LOOKING IN MY CHILDRENS EYES I REALIZE
THERE'S SO MUCH TO GIVE RIGHT HERE AT HOME

SOMETHING BIGGER THAN MYSELF
HERE'S A PLACE THAT I CAN HELP
ANOTHER CHANCE TO DO WHAT'S RIGHT
BRING THEIR WORLD A LITTLE MORE LIGHT
AND SERVE SOMETHING BIGGER THAN MYSELF
Track Name: Jay Clementi - Call To Prayer
They call it it a call to prayer
5am and I'm lying there
and echeos loud through this forein land
in a language I don't understand

Those speakers preaching bout their lord was like nails on a chalkboard a
to this american boy missing home, kept reminding me just how far I'm gone

God Is good God is great
I Think that's what they say
One things for sure about this place
It will make, or it will break your faith
your faith

upchurch was good as gold
Lions heart giving soul
told him for patrol one day
I had a stogy with his name

We'd light one up when we got back, but we never got the chance for that
He went down and when I heard, I nelt down in that empty, dusty, plywood church
and said

God Is good God is great
I think that's what they say
One things for sure about this place
It will make or break your faith
Your Faith Your Faith

Theres not much out here to lean on
Surrounded by all this hate
And that's why you need your brothers
- That's why you need your faith
your faith, your faith, your faith

God Is good God is great
I think that's what they say
One things for sure about this place
It will make or break your faith
Your Faith Your Faith

Sometimes I wonder who
He's really listening to
Is it us or is it them
Does it even matters in end
Track Name: Jay Clementi - Chasing Down A Hero
My dad left when I was 5
Slowly vanished from my life

Missed my high school graduation
and the day I took my wife
I' d drive slowly by his house
But he never came outside

So The few the proud the marines
Sounded pretty damn good to me
just needed a hero

So I signed the dotted line
In the trenches and the convoys
they were right thee by my side

Ive been chasing down a hero
Dam near all my life

Thers missing part of my soul
I'm trying despreatly find
someone that leads the way
It's all gonna be ok
yeah just out there on my own
while I'm chasing down a hero

Ive looked in the mirror cross town and overseas
And Finally found them, right in front of me

Ive been chasing down a hero
Dam near all my life

That missing part of my soul
was my children and wife
with Love they lead way
It's all gonna be ok

I'm not out here on my own
while I'm chasing down a hero
I'm not out
Track Name: Gary Nicholson - Fallen Angel
he was a one in a million kind of guy
the first one out the last to leave
the one you want by your side
we talked about our kids
we talked about our dreams
when he went down i went down with him
he took a part of me

fallen angel you will always fly
there's a place for you in the sweet by and by
back to your home waiting in the sky
fallen angel you will always fly

the hardest thing i ever had to do
was collect his things and clean out his room
pictures of his children
all the letters from his friends
no one could imagine
it would all come to an end

fallen angel you will always fly
there's a place for you in the sweet by and by
back to your home waiting in the sky
fallen angel you will always fly

The hardest thing i ever had to do
was clean his room
Track Name: Gary Nicholson - Funeral Detail
I'M THE ONE WHO HANDS THE FLAG TO THE FAMILY
ONE LAST REMINDER OF EVERYTHING THEY'VE LOST
WE ALL PLEDGE ALLEGIANCE TO
THE RED, WHITE, AND BLUE
AND HONOR THE ONES THAT PAID THE COST

I CAN'T LET A TEAR REVEAL
THE SADNESS THAT I FEEL
I JUST SAY THE WORDS I KNOW ARE NOT ENOUGH
WE JUST HEAR TAPS PLAY
SALUTE AND WALK AWAY
AND THEY'RE GONE WITHOUT THE ONE THEY LOVE

I'M THE ONE WHO HANDS THE FLAG TO THE FAMILY
A SYMBOL OF THE SACRIFICE THEY'VE SEEN
I TAKE AWAY THE HOPE THEY'VE HELD ON TO
THAT MAYBE IT'S ALL A BAD DREAM
SOME BRING IT HOME AND PLACE IT ON THE MANTLE
SOME JUST WANT TO HIDE IT AWAY
I JUST HIDE HOW I FEEL AND MAKE THAT SAME SPEECH
KNOWING THERE'S NOTHING I CAN SAY

I'M THE ONE THAT HANDS THE FLAG TOTHE FAMILY
THEIR EYES WILL HAUNT ME ALWAYS
I'M JUST A SOLDIER ON A FUNERAL DETAIL
WITH A SPEECH AND NOTHING I CAN SAY
I'M JUST A SOLDIER ON A FUNERAL DETAIL
WITH A SPEECH AND NOTHING I CAN SAY